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Just to clarify (and rub it in the faces of certain delaware kids who are not) I AM DONE.
and have been for about 40 hours.
I really don't want to go home. I would give anything to be able to stay in new york where there is so much to do and every night doesn't end up drunk, watching porn with my friends and going to wawa...though that's okay.
it hadn't even sunk in how much i actually have to do this summer.
going to North carolina to take care of my aunt, stephan coming from france in july, going to cape cod for the first "family vacation" in years and then getting surgery and hopefully not dying in august. and that's an arduous task, not dying.
this year has been so slow. it felt fast, but really it has been horrendously slow. i was looking at the classes i had taken last semester, and i could have sworn that i had taken them last year. it feels so long ago.
so i'm leaving this wonderfully prestigous institution on saturday to go home and waste away. Also, i realized my birthday is in less than two weeks. i'm going to be 20. TWENTY years old. i can't even think about it. in two weeks i won't be a "teen" i'll be a twenty NOTHING. not even a twenty something, a twenty nothing.
even though i felt like death, i went to the drug store and got enough meds to drug myself to the point of being able to draw breath, an I went to the movies by myself, which i think is my favorite thing in the world to do. In the middle of the afternoon, when there is no one there, it's amazing. I was the only person theater, and it was incredible, not so much the movie, but just being alone like that.
wow, this entry is severely lacking in my typical typos. i shold rellyt adfd some otherwise its bot the samne.
and have been for about 40 hours.
I really don't want to go home. I would give anything to be able to stay in new york where there is so much to do and every night doesn't end up drunk, watching porn with my friends and going to wawa...though that's okay.
it hadn't even sunk in how much i actually have to do this summer.
going to North carolina to take care of my aunt, stephan coming from france in july, going to cape cod for the first "family vacation" in years and then getting surgery and hopefully not dying in august. and that's an arduous task, not dying.
this year has been so slow. it felt fast, but really it has been horrendously slow. i was looking at the classes i had taken last semester, and i could have sworn that i had taken them last year. it feels so long ago.
so i'm leaving this wonderfully prestigous institution on saturday to go home and waste away. Also, i realized my birthday is in less than two weeks. i'm going to be 20. TWENTY years old. i can't even think about it. in two weeks i won't be a "teen" i'll be a twenty NOTHING. not even a twenty something, a twenty nothing.
even though i felt like death, i went to the drug store and got enough meds to drug myself to the point of being able to draw breath, an I went to the movies by myself, which i think is my favorite thing in the world to do. In the middle of the afternoon, when there is no one there, it's amazing. I was the only person theater, and it was incredible, not so much the movie, but just being alone like that.
wow, this entry is severely lacking in my typical typos. i shold rellyt adfd some otherwise its bot the samne.