A Tail gate party for too...many
Thursday after work Chloe and Tracy came over and died some hair, then chloe and I were off to Palm Harbor..
We met up with Bob at his work and then went to some gay dudes house, called some ppl and then Cat and Szuba came over.. we hung out for a little bit and then everyone excluding the gay guy Jonathan went to some beach place w/e clue.. I was fucked up on Methadone and Bob was driving.. I think... it's all kinda blurry to me...we lied on the cement at the beach asking stupid personal questions.. I was quite comfy lying on Szuba..then we took him home.. and OMG I got a good night kiss... it was like the first move he ever made on me.. then we went to Bob's, Cat and Bob went inside and Chloe and I slept out in my truck, which was surprisingly comfortable..
Friday morning Chloe and I went inside after Bob's mom left and fell asleep..we slept for a bit and then went to some place and got free food...then went back to bed.. I don't quite remember... but I believe we slept till like 5 or something.. Szuba came over and I lied on him on the coutch.. Some guy named Warren was there and also the little runaway tramp andrea..I think that was it... so we hopped in my truck and Warren's car and went to Warren's house.. I was puking my guts up all day... yumm..at warren's I again cuddled with Szuba..then Warren took him home and we went to this guy Billdo's house.. we were there for a few minutes and then left for Channel Side in Tampa.. we went to see the Rocky Horror Picture Show.. it was some sorta play thing.. it was alright not worth what I payed.. but it was cool.. after that we went to a fetish party in Ybor.. it was pretty cool but I felt like shit so I slept in the car... then once again we went to Bob's house and Chloe and I slept in my truck again..
Saturday morning we took Bob to work and then slept for about an hour in my truck before going inside then we showered and while Chloe passed out Cat and I went job hunting.. fun stuff.. then we came back ate a little and went to pick Bob up...then we went to mall so miss Chloe, Cat and Bob could "aquire" some games to pawn.. and then we went to the pawn shop ..and met Warren, Andrea, and Carli…after some pawning we went back to the mall to eat and walk around for a bit... Met up with Szuba there and fooled around.. he was trying to get me to have sex with him in the family center.. haha... I told him no though..then we left the mall took Szuba to a friends house and when to some mike guys house.. we sat there for a few minutes and then met up with this chick named bean.. she was pretty cool so where the two girls with her.. we didn't stay much longer.. we then went to this guy Tony's to get drunk and shit..I smoked a little and tlkaed to this guy Collin.. he was pretty hot, but all I really wanted was Szuba..
Szuba called sometime around 1:30 and we went and picked him up.. we stopped by some guys house named Zack to hang out with Bean again then like 10 ppl went back to Tony's.. I sat around talking to Collin for a few and then went and cuddled with Szuba on the coutch.. after a few minutes of that we went outside for a "walk" we made it as far as my truck.. then it got crazy..not only is Szuba hot but he's a Fan FUCKING Tastic lay!! the best I've ever had.. we did it on my tail gait , I straddled him on the front seat and then we did it on the tail gait again and then I laid down on the front seat and he stood at the door... WOW is he fucking good!!! the only shitty part about it was the fact that we WEREN'T alone.. Bean, two of her friends and Carli were fucking watching us...I guess it was kinda hot.. but kinda not..lol.. doesn't matter.. I wanted Szuba and I got him..after that it was like 4 am and I wanted to leave.. I had great timing too.. cuz right as everyone was leaving the cops showed up... fun fun...I made it home abour 5:30 and crashed after showering.. I worked 10-5 and I was late today because I woke up at 9:51... hmm.. the whole time I couldn't get what happened out of my head...and it's killing me...
I'm tired, hungry, I've been attacked by insects, the tail gate bruised my ass, and yet.. none of it matters.. I'm holding onto a deeper pain.. a heart ache...
No it has nothing to do with Szuba.. he was a great lay.. and now that I've had him.. I'm satisfied.. I want nothing more from him.. (except maybe another sex session)
I can't say I regret the sex.. I don't.. not one bit.. but it still hurts me.. because.. well.. this might sound cheesey.. but today is fathers day, and my dad's dead.. he's watching over me.. and I'm sure it would break his heart to know that his little girl is having sex.. it's like I'm giving him the worst fathers day present EVER... I don't get myself sometimes... so I've felt like shit all day... I just wanna cry.. and I'm sure by the end of the eveninng I will...
All in all.. I've learned a lot this weekend.. most lesson's good.. very few bad.. I'd say it's an experience I'll NEVER forget...
We met up with Bob at his work and then went to some gay dudes house, called some ppl and then Cat and Szuba came over.. we hung out for a little bit and then everyone excluding the gay guy Jonathan went to some beach place w/e clue.. I was fucked up on Methadone and Bob was driving.. I think... it's all kinda blurry to me...we lied on the cement at the beach asking stupid personal questions.. I was quite comfy lying on Szuba..then we took him home.. and OMG I got a good night kiss... it was like the first move he ever made on me.. then we went to Bob's, Cat and Bob went inside and Chloe and I slept out in my truck, which was surprisingly comfortable..
Friday morning Chloe and I went inside after Bob's mom left and fell asleep..we slept for a bit and then went to some place and got free food...then went back to bed.. I don't quite remember... but I believe we slept till like 5 or something.. Szuba came over and I lied on him on the coutch.. Some guy named Warren was there and also the little runaway tramp andrea..I think that was it... so we hopped in my truck and Warren's car and went to Warren's house.. I was puking my guts up all day... yumm..at warren's I again cuddled with Szuba..then Warren took him home and we went to this guy Billdo's house.. we were there for a few minutes and then left for Channel Side in Tampa.. we went to see the Rocky Horror Picture Show.. it was some sorta play thing.. it was alright not worth what I payed.. but it was cool.. after that we went to a fetish party in Ybor.. it was pretty cool but I felt like shit so I slept in the car... then once again we went to Bob's house and Chloe and I slept in my truck again..
Saturday morning we took Bob to work and then slept for about an hour in my truck before going inside then we showered and while Chloe passed out Cat and I went job hunting.. fun stuff.. then we came back ate a little and went to pick Bob up...then we went to mall so miss Chloe, Cat and Bob could "aquire" some games to pawn.. and then we went to the pawn shop ..and met Warren, Andrea, and Carli…after some pawning we went back to the mall to eat and walk around for a bit... Met up with Szuba there and fooled around.. he was trying to get me to have sex with him in the family center.. haha... I told him no though..then we left the mall took Szuba to a friends house and when to some mike guys house.. we sat there for a few minutes and then met up with this chick named bean.. she was pretty cool so where the two girls with her.. we didn't stay much longer.. we then went to this guy Tony's to get drunk and shit..I smoked a little and tlkaed to this guy Collin.. he was pretty hot, but all I really wanted was Szuba..
Szuba called sometime around 1:30 and we went and picked him up.. we stopped by some guys house named Zack to hang out with Bean again then like 10 ppl went back to Tony's.. I sat around talking to Collin for a few and then went and cuddled with Szuba on the coutch.. after a few minutes of that we went outside for a "walk" we made it as far as my truck.. then it got crazy..not only is Szuba hot but he's a Fan FUCKING Tastic lay!! the best I've ever had.. we did it on my tail gait , I straddled him on the front seat and then we did it on the tail gait again and then I laid down on the front seat and he stood at the door... WOW is he fucking good!!! the only shitty part about it was the fact that we WEREN'T alone.. Bean, two of her friends and Carli were fucking watching us...I guess it was kinda hot.. but kinda not..lol.. doesn't matter.. I wanted Szuba and I got him..after that it was like 4 am and I wanted to leave.. I had great timing too.. cuz right as everyone was leaving the cops showed up... fun fun...I made it home abour 5:30 and crashed after showering.. I worked 10-5 and I was late today because I woke up at 9:51... hmm.. the whole time I couldn't get what happened out of my head...and it's killing me...
I'm tired, hungry, I've been attacked by insects, the tail gate bruised my ass, and yet.. none of it matters.. I'm holding onto a deeper pain.. a heart ache...
No it has nothing to do with Szuba.. he was a great lay.. and now that I've had him.. I'm satisfied.. I want nothing more from him.. (except maybe another sex session)
I can't say I regret the sex.. I don't.. not one bit.. but it still hurts me.. because.. well.. this might sound cheesey.. but today is fathers day, and my dad's dead.. he's watching over me.. and I'm sure it would break his heart to know that his little girl is having sex.. it's like I'm giving him the worst fathers day present EVER... I don't get myself sometimes... so I've felt like shit all day... I just wanna cry.. and I'm sure by the end of the eveninng I will...
All in all.. I've learned a lot this weekend.. most lesson's good.. very few bad.. I'd say it's an experience I'll NEVER forget...