growing up and moving on
so..this will be my last entry...im done with drama, im done with depending on other people to be my backbone, im done with my going nowhere dead end job, im done with just accepting the fact that i dropped out of school, and im just ready to grow up
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A) You're right, i care. I don't want to be all "Oh ASHLEY!!! PLEASE DON'T LEAVE!!!" because, well, it's pointless. People do what they want to do with or without another persons comments, feelings, actions, or words. Sorry I lied about not caring, but if it wasn't such a big deal in the first place, why did you ask my opinion? I am happy for you though, you should get on with your life, people like me will be here for a long time.
B) If I meant something more than what you portrayed in that entire conversation, then, well, alot of the conversation wouldn't've happened. Your brother told me I was wrong, so I'm just gonna believe him, and hope to whatevers there that i am. In my mind, it seemed as though you told me "I'm leaving because you wouldnt grow up and get a place with me." Yeah, probably a miscommunication on my part. But to be quite honest ashley, does my opinion of you leaving REALLY matter? The way I see it is you'd've done it whether or not i was ready to go. Not to make you sound like a flake, because its not meant to be said like that, im just rather illiterate right now and cant come up with a better way to say it.
C) Good job, im proud that you can take the acheivments youve made and hold them high. but if youre going to say, and i quote, but i have i EVER really butt into ur business? (heres where it gets tricky) How many times have i told you i'd rather keep my mouth shut than give you my opinion? on the contrary, how many times have you TOLD me to give you my opinion, regardless of what it was?how many times have you sat here and bluntly told me to my face that you hate rob? how many times have you asked me about whats going on? how many times have you sat here and told me im a hypocrite for doing the exact same things you were doing? Countless, im sure. after saying that you dont butt into my business, you put this: YOU on the other hand DO need to force yourself to grow up! How is that NOT butting into my business? I dont have a problem with you for moving. i dont have a problem. with you. with the situation. with anything. you dont seem to understand that i dont care if you make decisions for your life, you wouldnt care if i made decisions about mine either.
D) and NOW, just like i have said to everyone else, if youre not happy about MY decision to leave or if u think what I'M doing is stupid, keep it to urself cause I dont wanna hear it! That just makes no sense. If you didnt want to hear my opinion, why did you ask for it?
E)stop makin it out like everyone is out to get you. they arent. nobody cares. What was the point in saying this? Is it to show me that you think that I think that youre leaving because you want to hurt me? again, go for it. good for you. my opinions DONT MATTER, remember? im not gonna die without you. besides, if you get over this, (yes, i have) feel free to write.
So please, ashley, before you just completely outright drag me down into the dust, rip me apart, and tell me your through with me, be sure you mean it.
brandy
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