growing up and moving on
so..this will be my last entry...im done with drama, im done with depending on other people to be my backbone, im done with my going nowhere dead end job, im done with just accepting the fact that i dropped out of school, and im just ready to grow up.
life is seriously going to change for me and no matter how many times i have said it before, this time its for certain.
im going back to school. going to get my ged. moving to texas to be with someone i dont truly know, but i will get to know more and more with each day that passes. i love casey and i feel in my heart that she wont let me down like so many of my so called "friends" have in my life for so long. and i dont know how good this sounds, but i think that just as much as i need her, she needs me. and we are going to grow so much and be better so much more than anyone has ever thought we would be.
i know that my decisions arent making too many people happy. ive lost the only friend, well best friend ive ever had i think, the one that i thought was there for me no matter what, all because of this. my mom i thought doubted me, come to find out, shes just as scared as i am. we just talked and i really think she supports me now. well more so than i thought she did.
im just babbling now...
anyway, the plan is as follows
because im a wuss and im scared to fly there by myself, casey is flying here and we are going to rent a car and drive back (which should be rather interesting lol) (w00t road trip) and this way works out better too cause this way i will be able to take my stuff with me, well most of it anyway, or better yet, the part that i need. after gettin there i will live with her family until we can get a place of our own. shes got a job now and shes decided shes going to save all of HER money and only spend her dads. lol, good idea. when i get there i am going to get my cosmotology license (which she already has) while we work at her moms business (which as i understand it is some sort of retail type makeup company which also has a salon type thing inside of it) and eventually we want to open our own spa...and live happily ever after. well thats the ideal scenario. we will see tho.
but anyway...wish us luck! im sure we'll need it! but i love you all (whoever it is that reads this) and i wish u the best of luck in life. be happy, you're worth it.
life is seriously going to change for me and no matter how many times i have said it before, this time its for certain.
im going back to school. going to get my ged. moving to texas to be with someone i dont truly know, but i will get to know more and more with each day that passes. i love casey and i feel in my heart that she wont let me down like so many of my so called "friends" have in my life for so long. and i dont know how good this sounds, but i think that just as much as i need her, she needs me. and we are going to grow so much and be better so much more than anyone has ever thought we would be.
i know that my decisions arent making too many people happy. ive lost the only friend, well best friend ive ever had i think, the one that i thought was there for me no matter what, all because of this. my mom i thought doubted me, come to find out, shes just as scared as i am. we just talked and i really think she supports me now. well more so than i thought she did.
im just babbling now...
anyway, the plan is as follows
because im a wuss and im scared to fly there by myself, casey is flying here and we are going to rent a car and drive back (which should be rather interesting lol) (w00t road trip) and this way works out better too cause this way i will be able to take my stuff with me, well most of it anyway, or better yet, the part that i need. after gettin there i will live with her family until we can get a place of our own. shes got a job now and shes decided shes going to save all of HER money and only spend her dads. lol, good idea. when i get there i am going to get my cosmotology license (which she already has) while we work at her moms business (which as i understand it is some sort of retail type makeup company which also has a salon type thing inside of it) and eventually we want to open our own spa...and live happily ever after. well thats the ideal scenario. we will see tho.
but anyway...wish us luck! im sure we'll need it! but i love you all (whoever it is that reads this) and i wish u the best of luck in life. be happy, you're worth it.