in other news....
in other news....
remember that ex friend Natasha, that was suppose to have me as a bridesmaid at her wedding, but didn't
and I haven't talk to since her wedding last year...
she was at Natalie's wedding.
she emailed me to see if I was ok..... and from there went this..
From: Natasha
Date: Jun 24, 2007 2:02 PM
hey...
realizing you're not speaking to me and pretending I don't exist yada yada yada...in any case, I hope you're okay. I've never seen you like that before and frankly I was a bit worried - I really hope you're feeling better.
Nat
my reply:
From: : s.e. :
Date: Jun 25, 2007 4:16 PM
yes you're right, I distanced myself from you, from us. I was hurt Natasha stemming from the wedding decisions, and i understood in the end that it was your choice and you were happy with it. I loved having you back in my life, it felt great but in the end I just was hurt since we'd become close that the friendship I thought we had, wasn't the friendship we had in the end from all of the wedding things. i've always been very happy for you, and Mark, and I loved you to pieces and that'll never changed. I just felt that why even bother, i wasn't important enough, this is what she wants, I'll let her do all of this and then I'll step back.
As per Natalie's wedding, i drank way too much, too fast due to nerves for making my speech. It all hit me, and normally i'll have a couple of drink and be great. It was funny, before they left for their honeymoon, I ask Natalie if you and Mark came, she laughed and said... you don't remember sam?
i'm like.. what? Natasha went into the bridal room and had a mini conversation to see how you were. I think I remember someone putting their hands on my back, and I'll assume that was you. As per who I was talking to.. no clue... haha. but thanks for caring love.
-sam
her reply:
Hey Sam,
I really wanted to talk to you at the wedding, but it seemed like you were running around like mad and by the time I thought you were free, you were, well...inebriated.
I really dont know how much more apologetic I can be in the instance, I never meant to hurt you. I've always heard of horror stories where a bride lost friends because someone wasn't in the wedding party. I guess I never thought it would happen to me, my assumption being that my friends wouldn't consider it such a big deal. I've always hoped that one day we'd put that behind us.
No matter what you think, your friendship has always been important to me and I still love you very much.
I'm glad you're okay. I was really worried.
N
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I've yet to reply... a part of me says, she's suffered enough, maybe I can let this pass..
I emailed my lawyer aunt and she said this..
"you were a MESS!...but ...maybe it is time to just put it all behind...you'll see...it's a very tough spot to be in...your Grandma made decisions for me that I didn't nec. want, in the name of peace I let my bridesmaids make decisions I didn't want..at the end of the day..no one was too happy ..so....so..you'll see..if it's just about the wedding between you..yes..let it go"
remember that ex friend Natasha, that was suppose to have me as a bridesmaid at her wedding, but didn't
and I haven't talk to since her wedding last year...
she was at Natalie's wedding.
she emailed me to see if I was ok..... and from there went this..
From: Natasha
Date: Jun 24, 2007 2:02 PM
hey...
realizing you're not speaking to me and pretending I don't exist yada yada yada...in any case, I hope you're okay. I've never seen you like that before and frankly I was a bit worried - I really hope you're feeling better.
Nat
my reply:
From: : s.e. :
Date: Jun 25, 2007 4:16 PM
yes you're right, I distanced myself from you, from us. I was hurt Natasha stemming from the wedding decisions, and i understood in the end that it was your choice and you were happy with it. I loved having you back in my life, it felt great but in the end I just was hurt since we'd become close that the friendship I thought we had, wasn't the friendship we had in the end from all of the wedding things. i've always been very happy for you, and Mark, and I loved you to pieces and that'll never changed. I just felt that why even bother, i wasn't important enough, this is what she wants, I'll let her do all of this and then I'll step back.
As per Natalie's wedding, i drank way too much, too fast due to nerves for making my speech. It all hit me, and normally i'll have a couple of drink and be great. It was funny, before they left for their honeymoon, I ask Natalie if you and Mark came, she laughed and said... you don't remember sam?
i'm like.. what? Natasha went into the bridal room and had a mini conversation to see how you were. I think I remember someone putting their hands on my back, and I'll assume that was you. As per who I was talking to.. no clue... haha. but thanks for caring love.
-sam
her reply:
Hey Sam,
I really wanted to talk to you at the wedding, but it seemed like you were running around like mad and by the time I thought you were free, you were, well...inebriated.
I really dont know how much more apologetic I can be in the instance, I never meant to hurt you. I've always heard of horror stories where a bride lost friends because someone wasn't in the wedding party. I guess I never thought it would happen to me, my assumption being that my friends wouldn't consider it such a big deal. I've always hoped that one day we'd put that behind us.
No matter what you think, your friendship has always been important to me and I still love you very much.
I'm glad you're okay. I was really worried.
N
-------------------------------
I've yet to reply... a part of me says, she's suffered enough, maybe I can let this pass..
I emailed my lawyer aunt and she said this..
"you were a MESS!...but ...maybe it is time to just put it all behind...you'll see...it's a very tough spot to be in...your Grandma made decisions for me that I didn't nec. want, in the name of peace I let my bridesmaids make decisions I didn't want..at the end of the day..no one was too happy ..so....so..you'll see..if it's just about the wedding between you..yes..let it go"