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ok. so like right now i'm a bundle of emotion, i don't really know
whats going on, theres a lot to sort out. So let me try to start. I'm
doing alright in school. I could/should be doing much better, but thats
the story of my life. I'm actually doing pretty well in my OT class,
actually the only class that i'm really struggling w/is my math class,
and thats b/c i hate math. I really don't need to know jack about
voting techniques, seriously. And well, i seriously, desprately NEED to
find a job. A second job b/c its causing the majority of the problems
in my life. Mostly i guess making people think that i'm incredibly
lazy, and while i can be, i don't want people thinking that i'm a waste
of space or something or that i'm gonna end up on government funding or
that i don't like working for what i have, and honestly, i like working
in general, i like paying my own bills i like feeling responsible. But,
my lack of finding a job has caused my parents to yell and restrict me
more and more. I'm 19 going on 20 and i have a curfew...at 11
PM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:-( this is new as of yesterday...but my mom
was reallllllly drunk at the time...i'm actually pretty worried about
my parents drinking habits, they're drinking more and more earlier and
earlier...its not cool. I really wanna get outta the house. Like i
can't stand having any kind of restrictions on me, and they keep saying
that they're gonna give kirsten the car which will really really really
upset me. like you have no clue. this is the reason why i have to get
another job NOW. Like RIGHT NOW. i swear its going to give me an
anxiety attack sooner rather than later. Oh and they're always telling
me how immature i am in comparison to kirsten...wtf. oh and for the guy
situation, all i want w/dima (aussie boy) is friendship now, b/c like
he hasn't really made a major effort to act like he likes me. like he
did for awhile, but on top of that, he's leaving to go back home soon.
So i really wanna keep that as just friendship. and on top of that
theres this guy that i work w/marc. and well ever since i met him i was
like he's really cute, really cool. and i had a crush on him but i
figured it wasn't gonna work so we just did the friend thing at work.
well lately (past month or so) we've been talking more flirting more
and just generally getting closer. and i got that little bit of hope in
my head that he likes me. And we've hung out and it was just a really
good time. Really really good
time. I really hope that something happens there... So thats the
jumble thats been my life...2/3rd's terrible 1/6th great. 1/6th eh...
but i'm in my anatomy class right now, and its about to start so i
should get going....