The dollar tree closes early now
Due to staffing shortages, the dollar tree closes early now. Idk if it’s because I just finished watching a post apocalyptic series (Station Eleven) or the confusion surrounding covid right now but I’m feeling actually scared for the fist time. When we first went into lockdown, I was surprisingly okay. I’m a homebody. I was with my family. We were safe. It was terrible what was happening but it was far from me at that moment. As time moved on in a new way I learned pretty quickly to adapt to the new norm, temping and masking daily. It became routine. Just like anything else, grab your wallet before you leave. I was in a fog, I think. The fog is thinning now and long term effects are taking place. Two years since the pandemic began, and we are still in a stifled state.
We can’t be all knowing. Nothing is permanent. I just want to believe the world can get better, that we can all breath again. Everything is changing. Remember ball pits? Fuck those things. Like a Petri dish. RIP ball pits, I’m ok with you never existing again. But what about playgrounds in general? Surely they will remain, after all they are outside. Tavi told me she was cold in class the other day because the windows were opened. It was 35 degrees. I get preventative measures, but something about the picture of a classroom of children freezing as they do their work rubs me the wrong way. They eat outside whenever they get the chance too. They are masks on indoors. I’m not against the masks in fact I prefer them. I’ve always been a germaphobe. Will my daughter remember? She was 5 when the lockdown happened. Just in her prime of socializing with other kids. Before. She has an excellent memory so I’m actually not too worried. Just today she told me her favorite number is 3 because all the best things happened when she was 3yrs olds (story land, visits to Vt To see cousin Margaret, air b&b vacation). She’s not wrong.
So I’m laying here next to my snoring husband and I’m actually pondering about the fall of civilization. That’s all. To help me sleep I’ll probably play some non sensible game on my phone until my eyes droop and hope I wake with a better attitude.