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Well im stuck waiting again. My orders haven't been cut yet, and im on the verge of what i think to believe in shift in my behavior, im very anxious, worried and can't seem to get boredom out of my mind. I feel tired today since i went to the gym but i haven't really done anything productive today. So much of my mental ambitions are being sluggish. I bought a new string on my violin but i lack the rhythm to continue further tonight.
I find myself bored without anything to do, i wish i had another computer and program so i can start at least on finalcut pro, that would keep me entertained and mentally creative. Usually now i just watch movies or see who's on Facebook. But as you all know, its not enough to keep me going. I must find purpose while i wait until i get out of here, but much of what i should be doing bores me without having an end goal to it.
I could be studying statistics, but there's no test, no students to challenge me on an essay, no audience to speak my mind too.
Just boredom. Should i read, sure, but to what end i guess. I like reading but right now even that bores me.
I feel like everything is coming to halt and i can't seem to have the inner peace of just being HERE, knowing that i will leave soon as the days go by keep me up at night.
Maybe a puzzle, a game, music, i don't know right now i just feel empty without a purpose as i wait.
the gyms really the only thing that keeps me going from day to day, hopefully this weekend will prove something different.
I find myself bored without anything to do, i wish i had another computer and program so i can start at least on finalcut pro, that would keep me entertained and mentally creative. Usually now i just watch movies or see who's on Facebook. But as you all know, its not enough to keep me going. I must find purpose while i wait until i get out of here, but much of what i should be doing bores me without having an end goal to it.
I could be studying statistics, but there's no test, no students to challenge me on an essay, no audience to speak my mind too.
Just boredom. Should i read, sure, but to what end i guess. I like reading but right now even that bores me.
I feel like everything is coming to halt and i can't seem to have the inner peace of just being HERE, knowing that i will leave soon as the days go by keep me up at night.
Maybe a puzzle, a game, music, i don't know right now i just feel empty without a purpose as i wait.
the gyms really the only thing that keeps me going from day to day, hopefully this weekend will prove something different.