um, are you kidding me?
Subversive Clem has made her presence known again (I'll call her Subversive Clem because awesome as Feral Clem is, Katie thought of that first :). But last night she wasn't needy or neurotic...well, I guess a little bit in her subject matter, but in the way she handled it all, she was very put together and sure of herself.
So, I haven't really spoken to Jar-Head since our ill-fated NCMO session (that thankfully WASN'T actually ncmo) and the ensuing few text messages. I saw him once on campus and I thought about saying hi, and then I remembered how I don't really want to talk to him at all so I sort of kept behind him so he wouldn't see me. Well, it would seem that this adventure stuck in my brain and Subversive Clem pulled it out last night. In my dream I was walking somewhere fairly late at night (which is what I was doing in real life last night/this morning) and I as I was walking between two buildings I saw Jar-Head walking in front of me. I totally did the quick about face of avoidance, but alas, I was not quick enough and he saw me. I reluctantly turned around as he started talking to me. I don't remember exactly what he said, but it was something very "You can't avoid me forever. I can't believe you're holding this against me." Now, as I've said, Jar-head and I go way back, so I decided I should be nice to him. So I said something funny instead of mean. Then he proceeded to start walking around with me. He clearly wanted to "fix" our relationship. But Subversive Clem seemed to be onto the fact that he was still out of line. So when, after talking to me for a while and thinking he'd softened me up some, he tried to get all close and put his arms around me Subversive Clem (in direct contrast to Real Clem) was like "Um, no. You have to be kidding." and shut him right down. Not in a rude way. Just in a "You're such an idiot" sort of way. Which continued. He just kept following me around. He didn't have a chance to get physical after that first attempt, but I just knew that if I gave him the slightest opening he was going to try. And it just was annoying me. He wouldn't leave me alone. So I started trying to get him to go away. Not maliciously. It was more like setting up little, um, traps? Not quite, but the best word I can come up with. I would just try to get him hung up doing something, and then I'd dart away and try to get away. But he kept following me and talking. Always talking talking talking...trying to talk me round. Apparently, see, my Auntie Wicky was in town with her big family, so I was looking for somewhere to sleep. I had planned on sleeping at my neighbor's, where apparently I'd slept before. But when I got there she had fallen asleep in that room, in the rocking chair. And he followed me in, talking loudly the whole time. I had to tell him to be quiet so he wouldn't wake her up. Then he followed me out of her house. Finally I realized that even with the family, MY room was still empty for some reason, so why didn't I just go there? But I didn't want Jar-head to follow me in there, because I knew then I'd never get rid of him. In the dream my room was on a second or third floor, just a room in a house, not an apartment or anything. And I had found a way to sneak through my window when I was out late so that I wouldn't wake anyone. It involved me climbing up on top of this awning kind of thing and sliding my window open (very Bed Intruder meets V for Vendetta) So, somehow I manage to get up on this awning before Jar-head has quite caught up with me, but I know he's just gonna follow me up. That's fine, as long as I can get inside and shut the window before he does. Somehow, I've managed to end up with these two massive pillows, which I've brought up with me. I start heckling him about how I was able to climb up here even carrying these giant pillows, and I bet he can't do it too. He's already started climbing up, so I use this as an excuse to then pelt him with said pillows, knocking him off, back to the ground (don't take this the wrong way--none of it has a bad feeling, just an annoyed "leave me alone already" feeling). So with those extra few minutes I slip inside and close the window.
I woke up at that point. I don't know why I enjoyed that dream so much, but I sure did. I was so proud of Subversive Clem for keeping him in his place and knowing exactly what was and wasn't acceptable. She was very firm and clear without being rude or unkind. Pity Real Clem can't be a bit more like Subversive Clem I guess.
In other news, I went on a late night walk last night trying to keep my mind sane. You know, it is amazing how, if I just keep walking long enough, eventually I feel better. Something about being out in the world, (I love nighttime walks, but day time, if it isn't too hot, work just as well). Also, part of what helped was a nice little text conversation with Bellini, one of my oldest friends from college. Bellini, Katey Scarlet, and I all used to walk down to the dollar theatre together for the midnight movie. Every week. We met working in the HFAC as custodians at an unhealthily early time of day. Bellini is one of my favorite people on earth, but unfortunately, he graduated and left me to go home. So he is in Oklahoma now. We text sporadically, usually when one of us sees something bizarre or out of the ordinary. He is ridiculously hilarious. So I texted him last night, as I was walking and feeling morose. I said something along the lines of "Aw Bellini, I wish you were here. How are you?" I didn't expect him to reply. It was late here in Provo, and Oklahoma is an hour later. But a few minutes later I get a text back asking me what's going on in life. We texted back and forth for about an hour, till I finally said something about how crazy he was to still be awake. I asked him when he was going to come out and visit me and he said "I'll work on that. I do miss you. No one else is as witty or as fun to be around." Awwww... He went to bed soon after that (it was after 2am for him! ack!), but talking to him was just what I needed. Bless his heart.
And today is my neurotic boss's birthday. I think I'll hop in the shower, and then make him some of my mom's delicious amazing brownies. He loves them. He said I wasn't to make him anything, but I know he'll be super excited if I do it anyway. If I do plan on that, though, I need to get going. He's probably planning on leaving work early so I need to get in there post haste. So...I'm off!
So, I haven't really spoken to Jar-Head since our ill-fated NCMO session (that thankfully WASN'T actually ncmo) and the ensuing few text messages. I saw him once on campus and I thought about saying hi, and then I remembered how I don't really want to talk to him at all so I sort of kept behind him so he wouldn't see me. Well, it would seem that this adventure stuck in my brain and Subversive Clem pulled it out last night. In my dream I was walking somewhere fairly late at night (which is what I was doing in real life last night/this morning) and I as I was walking between two buildings I saw Jar-Head walking in front of me. I totally did the quick about face of avoidance, but alas, I was not quick enough and he saw me. I reluctantly turned around as he started talking to me. I don't remember exactly what he said, but it was something very "You can't avoid me forever. I can't believe you're holding this against me." Now, as I've said, Jar-head and I go way back, so I decided I should be nice to him. So I said something funny instead of mean. Then he proceeded to start walking around with me. He clearly wanted to "fix" our relationship. But Subversive Clem seemed to be onto the fact that he was still out of line. So when, after talking to me for a while and thinking he'd softened me up some, he tried to get all close and put his arms around me Subversive Clem (in direct contrast to Real Clem) was like "Um, no. You have to be kidding." and shut him right down. Not in a rude way. Just in a "You're such an idiot" sort of way. Which continued. He just kept following me around. He didn't have a chance to get physical after that first attempt, but I just knew that if I gave him the slightest opening he was going to try. And it just was annoying me. He wouldn't leave me alone. So I started trying to get him to go away. Not maliciously. It was more like setting up little, um, traps? Not quite, but the best word I can come up with. I would just try to get him hung up doing something, and then I'd dart away and try to get away. But he kept following me and talking. Always talking talking talking...trying to talk me round. Apparently, see, my Auntie Wicky was in town with her big family, so I was looking for somewhere to sleep. I had planned on sleeping at my neighbor's, where apparently I'd slept before. But when I got there she had fallen asleep in that room, in the rocking chair. And he followed me in, talking loudly the whole time. I had to tell him to be quiet so he wouldn't wake her up. Then he followed me out of her house. Finally I realized that even with the family, MY room was still empty for some reason, so why didn't I just go there? But I didn't want Jar-head to follow me in there, because I knew then I'd never get rid of him. In the dream my room was on a second or third floor, just a room in a house, not an apartment or anything. And I had found a way to sneak through my window when I was out late so that I wouldn't wake anyone. It involved me climbing up on top of this awning kind of thing and sliding my window open (very Bed Intruder meets V for Vendetta) So, somehow I manage to get up on this awning before Jar-head has quite caught up with me, but I know he's just gonna follow me up. That's fine, as long as I can get inside and shut the window before he does. Somehow, I've managed to end up with these two massive pillows, which I've brought up with me. I start heckling him about how I was able to climb up here even carrying these giant pillows, and I bet he can't do it too. He's already started climbing up, so I use this as an excuse to then pelt him with said pillows, knocking him off, back to the ground (don't take this the wrong way--none of it has a bad feeling, just an annoyed "leave me alone already" feeling). So with those extra few minutes I slip inside and close the window.
I woke up at that point. I don't know why I enjoyed that dream so much, but I sure did. I was so proud of Subversive Clem for keeping him in his place and knowing exactly what was and wasn't acceptable. She was very firm and clear without being rude or unkind. Pity Real Clem can't be a bit more like Subversive Clem I guess.
In other news, I went on a late night walk last night trying to keep my mind sane. You know, it is amazing how, if I just keep walking long enough, eventually I feel better. Something about being out in the world, (I love nighttime walks, but day time, if it isn't too hot, work just as well). Also, part of what helped was a nice little text conversation with Bellini, one of my oldest friends from college. Bellini, Katey Scarlet, and I all used to walk down to the dollar theatre together for the midnight movie. Every week. We met working in the HFAC as custodians at an unhealthily early time of day. Bellini is one of my favorite people on earth, but unfortunately, he graduated and left me to go home. So he is in Oklahoma now. We text sporadically, usually when one of us sees something bizarre or out of the ordinary. He is ridiculously hilarious. So I texted him last night, as I was walking and feeling morose. I said something along the lines of "Aw Bellini, I wish you were here. How are you?" I didn't expect him to reply. It was late here in Provo, and Oklahoma is an hour later. But a few minutes later I get a text back asking me what's going on in life. We texted back and forth for about an hour, till I finally said something about how crazy he was to still be awake. I asked him when he was going to come out and visit me and he said "I'll work on that. I do miss you. No one else is as witty or as fun to be around." Awwww... He went to bed soon after that (it was after 2am for him! ack!), but talking to him was just what I needed. Bless his heart.
And today is my neurotic boss's birthday. I think I'll hop in the shower, and then make him some of my mom's delicious amazing brownies. He loves them. He said I wasn't to make him anything, but I know he'll be super excited if I do it anyway. If I do plan on that, though, I need to get going. He's probably planning on leaving work early so I need to get in there post haste. So...I'm off!