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hmm..well i have to start working on my senior project sometime here soon. i'm really pretty excited about it. Susannah's sister is teaching me how to do a backhandspring. or something like that. i don't really know yet. all i know is that i'll probably break my neck doing it. you know how i am. i really should stop getting drunk everytime i go up there because it's getting a little ridiculous. my mentor being 21 and susannah's big sister/my big sister is probably not a good situation to be in. i just hope she doesn't give up on me, because we all know i can be alittle bit stubborn. whatever though, really. it'll be pretty sweet.
so i guess my gma is pretty upset that i'm not writing her. well, shit, she stole a damn car and shit and she's wayy too old to be doing shit like that, so of course i'm not going to write her dumb ass. i just don't really talk to my family at all anymore...i talk to my mom and my sister and that's about it, and it's just because she never leaves me alone, and i'd die without grace seriously. whatever though. i don't know...i just really can't understand my family.
I HAVE 3 DAYS LEFT OF MY JUNIOR YEAR!
really, i've been talking about getting out of highschool for so long, and now i really just don't want to be asenior. i'm sooo afraid of the real world and living on my own. seriously.
you, you saw me.
you've always seen me
even when i was invisible.
what did it take for me to see?
i let you fall through the cracks
the concrete consumes my love
i was too afraid to be what you wanted
although you were my everything
my sweet smell in the air
and a hand in the dark
no longer do we ignite
we're just a memory of a spark
you, you were always the light
and i let the dark sea swallow us whole
now i walk this dusty road
alone.
we are smoke
floating aimlessly
and i was unaware
of what you were to me
you always saw.
even though i didn't see myself
one sunny day
no longer was i invisible
you took away my ghostly mask
and showed me to the world
i cannot thank you enough
but i have doused this flame
the wind claiming our love
as i lay under this blanket of stars
i realize where we are
and i miss that flame
please, remember me.
like a candle remembers the night
like a bird remembers the sky
like your daytime remembers my night.
see me.
because i am no longer invisible.
i no longer hide my face
i feel the sadness again...
please come and take it's place.
***
hold your head high, gorgeous
there are people who would kill
to see you fall
stay beautiful, darling
be brave
stand tall.
love with all you have, my dear
some would love
to see you alone
keep strong, sweet baby.
many would find happiness
in making your secrets known
hold your head high, gorgeous
that are people
who would love to see you fall.
lmao and this is my friend tara who, also, is in jail.
http://www.sheriffleefl.org/about/jaildetention/arrestbk.aspx?id=239517&bk=476240
so i guess my gma is pretty upset that i'm not writing her. well, shit, she stole a damn car and shit and she's wayy too old to be doing shit like that, so of course i'm not going to write her dumb ass. i just don't really talk to my family at all anymore...i talk to my mom and my sister and that's about it, and it's just because she never leaves me alone, and i'd die without grace seriously. whatever though. i don't know...i just really can't understand my family.
I HAVE 3 DAYS LEFT OF MY JUNIOR YEAR!
really, i've been talking about getting out of highschool for so long, and now i really just don't want to be asenior. i'm sooo afraid of the real world and living on my own. seriously.
you, you saw me.
you've always seen me
even when i was invisible.
what did it take for me to see?
i let you fall through the cracks
the concrete consumes my love
i was too afraid to be what you wanted
although you were my everything
my sweet smell in the air
and a hand in the dark
no longer do we ignite
we're just a memory of a spark
you, you were always the light
and i let the dark sea swallow us whole
now i walk this dusty road
alone.
we are smoke
floating aimlessly
and i was unaware
of what you were to me
you always saw.
even though i didn't see myself
one sunny day
no longer was i invisible
you took away my ghostly mask
and showed me to the world
i cannot thank you enough
but i have doused this flame
the wind claiming our love
as i lay under this blanket of stars
i realize where we are
and i miss that flame
please, remember me.
like a candle remembers the night
like a bird remembers the sky
like your daytime remembers my night.
see me.
because i am no longer invisible.
i no longer hide my face
i feel the sadness again...
please come and take it's place.
***
hold your head high, gorgeous
there are people who would kill
to see you fall
stay beautiful, darling
be brave
stand tall.
love with all you have, my dear
some would love
to see you alone
keep strong, sweet baby.
many would find happiness
in making your secrets known
hold your head high, gorgeous
that are people
who would love to see you fall.
lmao and this is my friend tara who, also, is in jail.
http://www.sheriffleefl.org/about/jaildetention/arrestbk.aspx?id=239517&bk=476240