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It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Something has been taken
From deep inside of me
A secret I’ve kept locked away
No one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show
They never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
For years and years they've played
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Sometimes I remember
The darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories
I wish I didn’t have
Sometimes I think of letting go
And never looking back
And never moving forward so
There would never be a past
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave
Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
Is so much simpler than change
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
It's easier to run
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made
It's so much easier to go
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame, to the grave
Linkin Park--Easier to Run
................................I can't explain.....I'm just so confused....you know those songs I put on xanga?(current video: Crawling, Linkin Park) Those explain how I'm feeling....so even if you don't like the genre, or the singer, just listen to the lyrics.....
Look closely at the words emphasized. It prolly won't make sense to anyone who wasn't there in the chat when I told....but maybe the next time we're alone, or in a small group of people who I trust, you can find the right question to ask and maybe understand me a little bit more.....maybe find out why I'm so moody....but don't give me your pity. Sympathy, yes. Pity....you can keep that stuff.
I just....I'm so ungrateful. I have so many people who love me, maybe some of the truest friends I've ever had in my life, and I just can't be happy. So many other people have it so much worse than me, have so much more responsibilities and reasons to moan and bithc than I do, and yet, I fill my xanga with angsty stuff all the time. That's not really fair of me....
A lot of people prolly haven't made it this far on my post. Wouldn't surprise me....-sigh- Sorry, I'll quit my pity-party now.
since I was so young, I honestly can't remember if this is true, if it happened, or if I imagined it, or melded movies with fragmented memories....
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Something has been taken
From deep inside of me
A secret I’ve kept locked away
No one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show
They never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
For years and years they've played
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Sometimes I remember
The darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories
I wish I didn’t have
Sometimes I think of letting go
And never looking back
And never moving forward so
There would never be a past
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave
Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
Is so much simpler than change
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
It's easier to run
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made
It's so much easier to go
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame, to the grave
Linkin Park--Easier to Run
................................I can't explain.....I'm just so confused....you know those songs I put on xanga?(current video: Crawling, Linkin Park) Those explain how I'm feeling....so even if you don't like the genre, or the singer, just listen to the lyrics.....
Look closely at the words emphasized. It prolly won't make sense to anyone who wasn't there in the chat when I told....but maybe the next time we're alone, or in a small group of people who I trust, you can find the right question to ask and maybe understand me a little bit more.....maybe find out why I'm so moody....but don't give me your pity. Sympathy, yes. Pity....you can keep that stuff.
I just....I'm so ungrateful. I have so many people who love me, maybe some of the truest friends I've ever had in my life, and I just can't be happy. So many other people have it so much worse than me, have so much more responsibilities and reasons to moan and bithc than I do, and yet, I fill my xanga with angsty stuff all the time. That's not really fair of me....
A lot of people prolly haven't made it this far on my post. Wouldn't surprise me....-sigh- Sorry, I'll quit my pity-party now.
since I was so young, I honestly can't remember if this is true, if it happened, or if I imagined it, or melded movies with fragmented memories....