Need to Understand...
I have had some strange, and terrifying things happen to me over a lifetime. I always knew I was different. When I was younger...9 or 10...I started having these thoughts go through my head. It was usually when I was laying in bed. My mother told me they were bad dreams but I knew I hadn't gone to sleep yet. I was seeing people that were close to my family dying. And what a coincidence...it usually happened just as I saw it within the following week. Sometimes it was even while it was happening. I prayed night after night tat it would go away and that I wouldn't see these things anymore. Then one day...they did. I guess if you wish for something long enough you'll get it.
When my youngest daughter was 3, she suddenly started talking to this little boy. She told me his name was Pete. I thought she was just playing, but when I listened to her talking, she was actually only carrying on one side of the conversation as if she was answering his questions. That made me think about what I see as a child.
About 3 years ago, these visions started coming back to me. I started paying attention this time. After an experience with one of these visions that ultimately saved mine and my daughter's life I realized that I had some control over the outcomes. Like if I could see myself as a part of the image I could change the ending. It held true on several occasions.
This may seem to be a random story to some of you but it gets stranger.
I was lying in bed one day with a blinding headache. My boyfriend came upstairs and was yelling at me because I hadn't made him dinner yet. I was so angry. He was walking back toward the stairs and I was wishing that he could feel just a little bit of the pain that I was experiencing. My whole body tensed up and I made one of those frustrated growls. At that same moment he fell down the stairs. We thought he had broken his arm.
I confided in a close friend and she said it sounded like I was a natural. I didn't know what that meant at the time but now I do. She believed that I was a natural witch.
I guess I was just wondering if anyone else out there has experienced anything like this. I wanna learn how to control these emotions. I guess I'm afraid that I will hurt someone if I don't get a better understanding of what it actually is I do and learn how to control these subconscious reactions.
Any advice is more than welcome...