Today
Tattoo
Originally uploaded by Mercury87Wow....two updates in one day, maybe that will make up for the 3 years of no posting, lol. So when I posted the last update, I was at PCC waiting for Sarah to get out of class. After she got out, we headed to Beaverton to get Whitney, then Kym. In the car, I accidentally bumped Sarah while she was drinking her apple juice, and it spilled all over her. I felt really bad, and she kinda got upset...the day wasn't really going the way she wanted it to. I kinda was a douche throughout the day because I get mad when she talks about Derrick, or when I see her pick up her phone to text him. Seriously, I kinda hate that phone....it symbolizes everything that has gone wrong, she never wanted me looking at it because it was an invasion of her privacy...more like I would find out about Derrick. ANYWAY, I shouldn't really let things get to me because I tell her that I am fine, and I ask questions about him, and I tell her that I want her to be with him....
Ok, the justification for me telling her I want her to be with him is if we ever do get back together, I don't want her to wonder how things would have been with him. I want her to be with him, and then make the decision if she wants to be with me. Things are kind of up in the air because they aren't really in a "relationship" but they have feelings for each other as if they are. I don't know...it's complicated.
Sooo, after I told her I was sorry I was being mean, things got kinda better. We got Whitney, and Kym and raced to Adorn. We got there with plenty of time to spare...she did the whole paperwork thing, and then got started. It only last maybe an hour and a half, and she didn't cry or anything. When we were together, I told her it was going to look weird, but I actually really like it. It looks completely different on the skin. After we were done, we went to Target. I got kinda upset again, I'm emotional...leave me alone, and I was asking Sarah if she had ditched out on me the night before to hang out with him. She kinda asked me why I wanted to know, and that threw up a flag. I don't care if they hang out, but I care when she tells me she doesn't want to hang out because she isn't feeling well, and then goes to hang out with him. She insisted she wasn't lying to me, so I guess I will believe her. It's hard to believe her because she has lied before, and I see how she wouldn't want me to know so I don't get upset, but I seriously would rather her not lie to me.
She left to take Derrick, the guy, home from work because they kind of live close to each other. I'm uploading pics, and then going to bed.