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What was I expecting from that? I could apologize forever and it will make her hate me more. I can't sleep in my room tonight... who am I kidding, I won't sleep anyways. I thought I was going to be ok... it's going to take a little while, longer than I expected. I didn't know that this person was me. I didn't know I gave up on stuff like this, quickly. I didn't know that I was so heartless. I wasn't sure how deep in this I was... I know now. I'm not looking for anything, it's it, it's done. But no one could imagine the pain on this side. And no one will be there for me, except maybe a few. Laura hates me. I'm sure of it, she thinks i'm idiot cause she doesn't understand me. She's lost all her respect in me, I can feel it. I need to go cry some more somewheres.