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Oct 10, 2009 23:28

Problem: We're not so much a family as we are three people living in the same house.
Solution: ...

emo, family

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staymyadamant October 11 2009, 04:37:49 UTC
Hm. Family problems, dear?

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solerika October 11 2009, 04:38:55 UTC
It just doesn't seem like we're much of family anymore.

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staymyadamant October 11 2009, 04:40:20 UTC
So it does...

What about your father and brother?

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solerika October 11 2009, 04:42:04 UTC
Dad's back to working full time and Dave's always holed up in his room, out doing Avon, or down at the club playing pool or darts.

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staymyadamant October 11 2009, 04:44:53 UTC
I'm pretty sure because of those two things, you were lonely.

At the least, your father is getting the money he need and in my humble opinion, it's the best he can do at being employed at this time.

By Avon, is your brother selling those things or buying?

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solerika October 11 2009, 04:46:26 UTC
Probably.

I just miss doing things like we used to.

He's selling, amusingly enough. The twerp could probably sell ice cubes to Santa.

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staymyadamant October 11 2009, 04:50:43 UTC
So, the males of your family have jobs. Really Sol, I think that's a very male thing to do, to find money to pay the bills and to cover other expenses. It seems your father and brother hold a lot more responsibility on their shoulders.

I think your father haven't forgotten about being a family. He just do what he has to do.

It seems you have trouble adapting to changes.

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solerika October 11 2009, 04:53:40 UTC
Except that Dave isn't really making anything, but that's neither here nor there.

I just wish we were still like other families that spent time together and had fun more than once in a while.

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staymyadamant October 11 2009, 04:56:55 UTC
Yeah, Avon...anyone can do that actually if they have the talent to sell stuff.

Once in a while is better than none at all.

Sol, I think you have to trust your dad more. Trust your dad in his jobs and in his abilities. Perhaps, in that way, you're still a family, even if it can't be seen or felt physically.

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solerika October 11 2009, 04:59:34 UTC
Not sure what you mean, but I guess so.

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staymyadamant October 11 2009, 05:01:24 UTC
What I mean is if all of you can't find the time to be together, then try to believe in each other.

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solerika October 11 2009, 05:05:11 UTC
♥ I do. I just don't want to end up wasting what I have like mom.

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staymyadamant October 11 2009, 05:11:42 UTC
You and your mother are different people. You're not her. You're an offspring of her, but she's gone out of your life, right? So, you can't consider her as a mother anymore. She's a stranger now. You're on your own as an individual at this present time.

You're not a waste like your mother, but it pains me to see much of your potential to be your very best is wasted to your pessimism.

You can pursue your best ideas and your best interests if you just try like most of us.

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solerika October 11 2009, 06:04:00 UTC
She's probably as gone as she gets for being right down the street, but it's hard to not think of her as such.

At this point I don't know how to not be pessimistic, or if I even want to. Seems that the more optimistic you are, the more you're setting yourself up to be disappointed.

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staymyadamant October 11 2009, 06:12:00 UTC
You're still both different people.

It sound like you wanted to be optimistic without the guarantee of being disappointed every single time.

No one can tell you to be happy and no one can force you to smile, but if you noticed, your friends don't encourage you to stay sad all the time.

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solerika October 11 2009, 06:19:49 UTC
I'm well aware of that. I'd just rather not waste my time with things that don't matter like she does. Like her parents did.

It'd just be nice for things to go right for once. Every time it looks like something is going to work out, it ends up awry. Like having a good dream and waking up to realize it's nothing but.

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