Only one call.

[solerika]

After sobbing harder than I have since Katie died, I've come to realize that most of the time I don't actually feel anything. It's like my ability to really experience things has dulled to the point that nothing matters and the only thing I will be able to truly feel is sadness. That's become my default emotion. Some people smile all the time, without needing a reason to. I frown. So much so that people feel the need to say something when I actually am smiling for no apparent reason.

tl;dr: Can a person who has resigned themself to always being sad, actually ever being happy?

-Suki, I hope everything is okay.