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[soimacrackwhore]

boy,

im not late, i read you recent update and i am so happy you are thriving again.
it reminds me of a telephone conversation i had with you sometime last year.
enthralled i watched my feet fumble around as you tore apart my thought-process. i hated it and i hated you for trapping me inside of there.
words eventually refused to come out from under my stuttering lips because they were scared that you already knew what was inside my head before i did.

you are so beautiful to me.

not you at all really but this.
and that
and then
i dont care what you make of me
or that and then and it
but just so you know
i loved every syllable.
and you YOU boy know exactly

thank you.

in reference to time
it can be then.
and then can be that.
if that will be it.
then this can be now.

you dont need to call me back
but it would be nice to share a phoneline with you
when distractions allow it.

hayden