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[soigne_mache]

the long stretch is coming to end.
there are no distractions.

even though the ideas seem appealing.
it's highly probable i'll be apartment hunting again.
come january.

here..

work has been oddly great these past few weeks.
i changed my perspective.
i got back to me. who i used to be without the speed and the hangovers.
and i like it a lot.
i don't like the utterly exhausted part where i come home and collapse
unable to move my body.
but when i am there i'm alright.
and i like being alright. for a change.
i'm not caught up on my head and my heart feels good and warm again.

i was in a passionate monologue on wed.
rambling about time and what i'd like to do with my life.
and it's always been a constant that i'd been confident in the notion.
my future.

for now there is consistency. and i've not been so manic crazy irrational.
and harming.

pleasant.