needs inner peace
I feel so overwhelmed with emotions right now and I don't think it's helping at all that it is almost 4am.
The emotional wreck that is me right now can't stand it when the unexpected happens and the outcomes can't be controlled. Life goes on but I will always dwell on what actions I could have done to avoid the situation. Even as I try to think positive about it, there will always be a time in the future that will remind me of how much of a fool I am.
Why are humans so easily affected by change? I wish I was more flexible around it instead of always clinging to something that I would want to treasure for the rest of my life... only for it to be either altered or removed out of my life forever.
I need peace, and some sleep.