Hold on this is a long one
So yeah.. I'm sorry if this gets rambly. This whole year has really just been one big waste for me. Let us bring it back to the beginning. I fell for amanda back in july of last year and until last week i didn't really want anything to do with any other girl. So thats what went on for the entire year I just ignored every other girl. So other then that lets start summer.
This summer just royally blows. I have done absolutely nothing. Not once have i gone to the beach or hung out with all the peeps i used to. Since I quit the band I really don't talk to anyone or see anyone. I really have no ambition to talk to a lot of people I graduated with because half of the guys i graduated with who claimed to be my friends were pissed off because was in the group picture of all the guys in the "crew" at prom, That hurt. So summer is going. Why is everything so lonely?? I mean look at me i can honestly i have spent more time in my room then i have in school in the past year, I HATE CONNECTICUT IT'S KILLING ME SLOWLY LITTLE BY LITTLE.
So I have come to the conclusion that my heart rushes into things way before the rest of me. so that could have something to do with the fact that i am 18 now and have never had a girlfriend and have had only fleeting little relationships none of which have made it to the one month mark. So Lately guys I'm really just not doing that good. All my friends got together for their birthdays and stuff my 18th birthday i went to 7-11 with steve, Well i guess what i am saying is please pray for me I don't know if I can trust myself to stay out of trouble. anymore.
I need to get out of Connecticut
This summer just royally blows. I have done absolutely nothing. Not once have i gone to the beach or hung out with all the peeps i used to. Since I quit the band I really don't talk to anyone or see anyone. I really have no ambition to talk to a lot of people I graduated with because half of the guys i graduated with who claimed to be my friends were pissed off because was in the group picture of all the guys in the "crew" at prom, That hurt. So summer is going. Why is everything so lonely?? I mean look at me i can honestly i have spent more time in my room then i have in school in the past year, I HATE CONNECTICUT IT'S KILLING ME SLOWLY LITTLE BY LITTLE.
So I have come to the conclusion that my heart rushes into things way before the rest of me. so that could have something to do with the fact that i am 18 now and have never had a girlfriend and have had only fleeting little relationships none of which have made it to the one month mark. So Lately guys I'm really just not doing that good. All my friends got together for their birthdays and stuff my 18th birthday i went to 7-11 with steve, Well i guess what i am saying is please pray for me I don't know if I can trust myself to stay out of trouble. anymore.
I need to get out of Connecticut