Growing up
Making the jump from child to adult is difficult. The jump itself is relatively short, but as you consider the consequences the distance increases.
I stand on the precipice of adolescence and it's wierd because, as much as people tell me how god damn great the other side is. My feet have just become comfortable in the place they stand. The soft reasuring grass feels like heaven compared to the rocky crag that expands before me.
People are sure it's good, people are sure it's right. A part of me knows it is, and a part of me does not, because i am scared. Scared half to death that when i leave this ledge the grass will die and the cliff will crumble in on itself.
I don't know where i am, whether still standing, whether in mid-jump, whether I'm already on the other side braving the unknown.
I wish i knew.
Because a glimmer of light holds me gently and guides me forward. For once i don't know, I am not sure! And i must trust her. It's something i do know. Perhaps the only thing at this point.
I want time to stop, i want to be here forever, but I can't.
I don't want to be caught here, but then again i never want to lose here. This place, with these people, friends and even family are my sanctuary. They are my home.
I feel like a want to turn the world away, so that I can find myself.
I'm lost and scared, i just want it all to work.
Because my eyes are not dry yet from this ordeal.
-S-
I stand on the precipice of adolescence and it's wierd because, as much as people tell me how god damn great the other side is. My feet have just become comfortable in the place they stand. The soft reasuring grass feels like heaven compared to the rocky crag that expands before me.
People are sure it's good, people are sure it's right. A part of me knows it is, and a part of me does not, because i am scared. Scared half to death that when i leave this ledge the grass will die and the cliff will crumble in on itself.
I don't know where i am, whether still standing, whether in mid-jump, whether I'm already on the other side braving the unknown.
I wish i knew.
Because a glimmer of light holds me gently and guides me forward. For once i don't know, I am not sure! And i must trust her. It's something i do know. Perhaps the only thing at this point.
I want time to stop, i want to be here forever, but I can't.
I don't want to be caught here, but then again i never want to lose here. This place, with these people, friends and even family are my sanctuary. They are my home.
I feel like a want to turn the world away, so that I can find myself.
I'm lost and scared, i just want it all to work.
Because my eyes are not dry yet from this ordeal.
-S-