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tonight was great.
the shelther and st andrews combined their shows.
so i got to see.
-brazil. ........great.
-the reason. .....eh.
-hopesfall. ........prettyyyy great.
-emery. ...........loved.
-alexis on fire. .......not as good as expected.
and yeah it was sweet.
me caro and zak.
it was such a nice time.
i love shows.
and there are still so many more to come.
and maybe if things continue to go well.
ill be able to go to more.
well other than the great time tonight.
today was absolutely horrible. my mom and i arnt talking. my dad is home now and all is not well. life is just kind of basically bad. the only time i feel good is when im not home. because i just feel like i can not even have an opinion at home. its really pretty horrible. my mom wants me to go live with my grandma. i dont know whethere to cry or to just sut and follow the motions and watch my life go in a strange direction. i dont really feel like saying any more. cause it just gets me in a really wierd mood. i just start to feel like i can accomplish nothing if no one is supporting me. i want to get a job. because then i will be making money. i hate asking my parents for anything. they guilt trip me later. life is one very large confusion and frusteration for me lately.
conversation with my mom and i.
me "so you want me to go live with grandma? are you serious?"
mom "well you know what, yeah i think so, cause all you do is complain about things you do"
me "not exactly, I try to tell you how I feel about things, and how I want to change them"
mom "oh please jennifer."
yeah. i love my grandma. i dont even know if i would mind moving away right now. because honestly i do not enjoy south. but who knows if i would enjoy cousino? its very hard to tell. i would be a half hour away from home in warren. warren is a nice town. and there is nothing really to do, but then again, there is really nothing to do anywhere.
i know none of this will happen. my family WOULD fall apart without me. i do half of everything all the time. and they don't even realize it. at all.
ok i hate even thinking about this. let alone typing to people who most likely 1. dont care. or 2. do not feel like reading all this.
which is understandable. im rambling. and im sure people have it so much worse. so i shouldnt even be talking.
but you know. to me. this is pretty bad stuff.
oh goodnight.
great.night.
sad.night.
happy.night.
love.night.
no.
maybe.one.day.
help.me.
before.i.crack.
and.break.
anything.can.make.
me.react.
to.your.action.
oh.yes.
i.love.you.
only.tonight.
the shelther and st andrews combined their shows.
so i got to see.
-brazil. ........great.
-the reason. .....eh.
-hopesfall. ........prettyyyy great.
-emery. ...........loved.
-alexis on fire. .......not as good as expected.
and yeah it was sweet.
me caro and zak.
it was such a nice time.
i love shows.
and there are still so many more to come.
and maybe if things continue to go well.
ill be able to go to more.
well other than the great time tonight.
today was absolutely horrible. my mom and i arnt talking. my dad is home now and all is not well. life is just kind of basically bad. the only time i feel good is when im not home. because i just feel like i can not even have an opinion at home. its really pretty horrible. my mom wants me to go live with my grandma. i dont know whethere to cry or to just sut and follow the motions and watch my life go in a strange direction. i dont really feel like saying any more. cause it just gets me in a really wierd mood. i just start to feel like i can accomplish nothing if no one is supporting me. i want to get a job. because then i will be making money. i hate asking my parents for anything. they guilt trip me later. life is one very large confusion and frusteration for me lately.
conversation with my mom and i.
me "so you want me to go live with grandma? are you serious?"
mom "well you know what, yeah i think so, cause all you do is complain about things you do"
me "not exactly, I try to tell you how I feel about things, and how I want to change them"
mom "oh please jennifer."
yeah. i love my grandma. i dont even know if i would mind moving away right now. because honestly i do not enjoy south. but who knows if i would enjoy cousino? its very hard to tell. i would be a half hour away from home in warren. warren is a nice town. and there is nothing really to do, but then again, there is really nothing to do anywhere.
i know none of this will happen. my family WOULD fall apart without me. i do half of everything all the time. and they don't even realize it. at all.
ok i hate even thinking about this. let alone typing to people who most likely 1. dont care. or 2. do not feel like reading all this.
which is understandable. im rambling. and im sure people have it so much worse. so i shouldnt even be talking.
but you know. to me. this is pretty bad stuff.
oh goodnight.
great.night.
sad.night.
happy.night.
love.night.
no.
maybe.one.day.
help.me.
before.i.crack.
and.break.
anything.can.make.
me.react.
to.your.action.
oh.yes.
i.love.you.
only.tonight.