i hate the way i feel.
should i even ever get upset about my life because something is wrong?
one respect. absolutley not. because its so much worse for so many others.
i feel self centered and horrible for focusing on my problems. even writing htem out to you.
or should i just be aware of what is good and bad happening around me, get sad, get mad, get happy and depressed and go through life in my moods, and not only thinking it could be worse, so why am i even complainig?
well yes i could do that. i would be true to my emotions. and i already am. but sometimes i just feel like the worst person for getting in sad moods. like i have it all too good to be even complaining. but being aware of your life and whats going on whether good or bad is ok?? hmm.
-ive grown up in grosse pointe. one of the wealthiest towns in michigan and maybe america.
-i have loving friends. who most of the time love me and i love them back.
-my family loves me. and gives me almost everything i ask for.
-my family supports me in the majority of things i do.
-i go to one of the best schools in america.
-i am smart and i have lots of musical talent.
-i can dance, i can move, i am not subjected to a wheel chair or am impaired by any sort.
-the Lord is there for me. but i push Him away here and there. which is a horrible thing on my part, that i am trying to hard to deal with. wow... i never write aboutthat stuff on here. which dont worry, i wont. i know it causes problems for all.
-i have very nice materialistic things, that i take for granted.
...and so much more.
and even i read through this and ask myself why am i ever sad? why am i ever lonely? why am i ever upset with my life? or really upset with me? how i am? like im just totally invisible to people and the world sometimes? just not really there, but there to you.
and to tell you all the truth. i dont know.
because the thing is, i am so thankful for so so so so so so so so so so much. and happy about so much. but still i find myself feeling totally empty sometimes.
and that confuses me.
im sorry. they arn't. right now.
fuck.
see i am so fine with everything. everything is great.
there is just something. that isn't right at all.
and it keeps happening.
oh i just dont know.
im sorry to anyone who is reading this.
my mind goes off to unknown places.
hate.this.im.fine.im.not.just.come.save.me.
one respect. absolutley not. because its so much worse for so many others.
i feel self centered and horrible for focusing on my problems. even writing htem out to you.
or should i just be aware of what is good and bad happening around me, get sad, get mad, get happy and depressed and go through life in my moods, and not only thinking it could be worse, so why am i even complainig?
well yes i could do that. i would be true to my emotions. and i already am. but sometimes i just feel like the worst person for getting in sad moods. like i have it all too good to be even complaining. but being aware of your life and whats going on whether good or bad is ok?? hmm.
-ive grown up in grosse pointe. one of the wealthiest towns in michigan and maybe america.
-i have loving friends. who most of the time love me and i love them back.
-my family loves me. and gives me almost everything i ask for.
-my family supports me in the majority of things i do.
-i go to one of the best schools in america.
-i am smart and i have lots of musical talent.
-i can dance, i can move, i am not subjected to a wheel chair or am impaired by any sort.
-the Lord is there for me. but i push Him away here and there. which is a horrible thing on my part, that i am trying to hard to deal with. wow... i never write aboutthat stuff on here. which dont worry, i wont. i know it causes problems for all.
-i have very nice materialistic things, that i take for granted.
...and so much more.
and even i read through this and ask myself why am i ever sad? why am i ever lonely? why am i ever upset with my life? or really upset with me? how i am? like im just totally invisible to people and the world sometimes? just not really there, but there to you.
and to tell you all the truth. i dont know.
because the thing is, i am so thankful for so so so so so so so so so so much. and happy about so much. but still i find myself feeling totally empty sometimes.
and that confuses me.
im sorry. they arn't. right now.
fuck.
see i am so fine with everything. everything is great.
there is just something. that isn't right at all.
and it keeps happening.
oh i just dont know.
im sorry to anyone who is reading this.
my mind goes off to unknown places.
hate.this.im.fine.im.not.just.come.save.me.