tonight I watched Amelie.
tonight I realized a lot.
first. I really have decided that I can not just fall for anyone. And if that means waiting for a long time for someone amazing to come along, then I will wait. because when I meet someone, I want them to feel like the happiest person alive that they have found me, and I want to feel the same about them. I know that nothing last forever when we are young. But I am waiting for something to come along that can last for a while that can make me happy. I am a lonely girl. And it is sad. But I need to get over it. I really do. I wish for things that are not here in front of me, but I do beleive that there is someone else out there who is wanting the same exact thing as me, and if its meant to be, then I will find that person. ..that of course is in many years to come... because we all know that I have to get my heart broken a few times before the right guy comes along. But then again... its like does that really have to happen to you? Or can you just learn from getting know people who are the right ones and who arn't the right ones and learn from that.
do you have to fall in love more than once to find the real true love?
or will you know its the right person, when you meet that one right person?
life is tough. even when nothing is wrong. nothing feels right.
and it seems like everyone doesn't get it.
its hard.
i loved the movie Amelie so much. Wynneth always told me how great it was. And I finally got around to renting it. And I seriously recommend it to anyone who loves a wonderful story, that is filled with awesome messages about love.
I know thats tacky, but its true.
meh I'm rambling like woah. but I hope someone understands the confused and alone message I am trying to portray tonight.
I guess what this is really about, is I wish I was in a relationship with someone, but I'm so picky and apprehensive and afraid to get to know people, because I'm afraid of getting hurt, that nothing ever is happening.
im in a loving mood tonight.
woot.
some more thoughts. a picture for you.
hearts.from.jennifer.to.you.