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+Project Runway
+Happy Moods
+Some people
+When the sun comes out
+Pop Music
+Not dying from lots of things.
-This House.
-People being lots of not helpful things.
-This cast.
-Not walking.
-Not being able to take care of myself.
-Not being able to live normally.
So I broke part of my foot in half and spranged my ankle.
I don't know hot to spell.
And I am alright with all of this.
Its strange cause I've been bitching for so long about
a. driving around and being annoyed that I have my licsnese cause it has so much responsibility.
b. doing way too much.
c. taking care of everyone but myself.
d. not thinking straight about anything and feeling really depressed about way too many things.
This list could go on. As all things do.
But now I am ok. And I will keep going and living, just actually for real struggling.
Like taking a shower. Yeah. A joke. But don't worry I still shower. It's just very complicated and uncomfortable because I can't put weight at all on my foot for six weeks.
So much for working out.
And walks.
And driving. Cause its my right foot.
So much for a lot of things. But now lots of new things will come my way.
Like for example I found out the season finale of Project Runway is on tonight and I would have never watched it if I would have done two violin lessons and dance and homework tonight. Instead I just have to shower and do my homework. And the rest of the timeis mine.
Now I can read and write and listen to music more.
People make me food and get me things. And I don't rush up and down the stairs either. Because well I don't really know how to use stairs anymore.
Also the best part is my cast is filled with mini dinosaurs on the outside. I don't know how much cuter it could get.
Another thing. I might not be going to New York now, because I just don't see how it could happen. And I don't even mind. Whatever it takes for me to be walking agian. I have total faith that I'll be ok.
I am so glad just this happened as opposed to something really bad like breaking a whole leg or like an arm, because then I wouldn't be able to play music and that alone would probably kill me.
I also was thinking that all of these things happen for reasons and if this didn't happen maybe my dad would have gotten in an accident going to these dumb meetings he goes to or to his stupid friends house on Tuesdays. Instead he had to stop what he ws doing and help for once. Hmm how strange. He is still a horrible person. Whatever. I would be upset if something happened to him. He will never learn. Ok anyways enough about him.
So now I just lay around. Finally. Right?
I just am so good right now though. I think?
I mean why should I feel bad? There are too many other people feeling bad.
So I am going to feel extra good, to make up for the ones feeling bad.
And smile even more. Even though I'm in like triple pain and my mom won't let me have enough motrin.
You know your life is sad when 800mg of motrin does not even phase you.
hmmmmm ok well I hope Daniel wins on Project Runway!
I love you all.
Well I don't. But lets pretend.
Life is so much more fun when we make beleive.
Oooh I love Jen and Eisley. And I'm going to lots of shows soon. And that makes me smile. And Jen and Jen will own all of you one day.
HMM is my face really that chubby? Well, probably.
oh wait! we already do!
+Happy Moods
+Some people
+When the sun comes out
+Pop Music
+Not dying from lots of things.
-This House.
-People being lots of not helpful things.
-This cast.
-Not walking.
-Not being able to take care of myself.
-Not being able to live normally.
So I broke part of my foot in half and spranged my ankle.
I don't know hot to spell.
And I am alright with all of this.
Its strange cause I've been bitching for so long about
a. driving around and being annoyed that I have my licsnese cause it has so much responsibility.
b. doing way too much.
c. taking care of everyone but myself.
d. not thinking straight about anything and feeling really depressed about way too many things.
This list could go on. As all things do.
But now I am ok. And I will keep going and living, just actually for real struggling.
Like taking a shower. Yeah. A joke. But don't worry I still shower. It's just very complicated and uncomfortable because I can't put weight at all on my foot for six weeks.
So much for working out.
And walks.
And driving. Cause its my right foot.
So much for a lot of things. But now lots of new things will come my way.
Like for example I found out the season finale of Project Runway is on tonight and I would have never watched it if I would have done two violin lessons and dance and homework tonight. Instead I just have to shower and do my homework. And the rest of the timeis mine.
Now I can read and write and listen to music more.
People make me food and get me things. And I don't rush up and down the stairs either. Because well I don't really know how to use stairs anymore.
Also the best part is my cast is filled with mini dinosaurs on the outside. I don't know how much cuter it could get.
Another thing. I might not be going to New York now, because I just don't see how it could happen. And I don't even mind. Whatever it takes for me to be walking agian. I have total faith that I'll be ok.
I am so glad just this happened as opposed to something really bad like breaking a whole leg or like an arm, because then I wouldn't be able to play music and that alone would probably kill me.
I also was thinking that all of these things happen for reasons and if this didn't happen maybe my dad would have gotten in an accident going to these dumb meetings he goes to or to his stupid friends house on Tuesdays. Instead he had to stop what he ws doing and help for once. Hmm how strange. He is still a horrible person. Whatever. I would be upset if something happened to him. He will never learn. Ok anyways enough about him.
So now I just lay around. Finally. Right?
I just am so good right now though. I think?
I mean why should I feel bad? There are too many other people feeling bad.
So I am going to feel extra good, to make up for the ones feeling bad.
And smile even more. Even though I'm in like triple pain and my mom won't let me have enough motrin.
You know your life is sad when 800mg of motrin does not even phase you.
hmmmmm ok well I hope Daniel wins on Project Runway!
I love you all.
Well I don't. But lets pretend.
Life is so much more fun when we make beleive.
Oooh I love Jen and Eisley. And I'm going to lots of shows soon. And that makes me smile. And Jen and Jen will own all of you one day.
HMM is my face really that chubby? Well, probably.
oh wait! we already do!