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I havent updated this in a while..
but i really need to vent some things
the past month has been really bad for me...
i lost my bf of 2 years
i lost my favorite job
i lost my dad (not physically but emotionaly/mentaly)
i graduated (youd think id be happy...but i have to grow up now)
i moved away from home and friends
i lost my other bf that i found while being depressed about the first
i did some pretty stupid shit
im FUCKED up
i cant live like this anymore
im 17 almost 18 years old...and im already unstable
GOD FUCKING DAMNIT
i have nothing
i feel like shit all the time
and seriously i want to die
why cant i have a normal life...why cant things go right for me
i just want to be happy...and i havent been that for a long time.
the next 5 years of my life ill be living out of a dorm
i dont want to get older
i dont want things to change
but they have
and they will continue to
i feel like everything that has happened to me is my fault
im scared
im lonely
im depressed
but i really need to vent some things
the past month has been really bad for me...
i lost my bf of 2 years
i lost my favorite job
i lost my dad (not physically but emotionaly/mentaly)
i graduated (youd think id be happy...but i have to grow up now)
i moved away from home and friends
i lost my other bf that i found while being depressed about the first
i did some pretty stupid shit
im FUCKED up
i cant live like this anymore
im 17 almost 18 years old...and im already unstable
GOD FUCKING DAMNIT
i have nothing
i feel like shit all the time
and seriously i want to die
why cant i have a normal life...why cant things go right for me
i just want to be happy...and i havent been that for a long time.
the next 5 years of my life ill be living out of a dorm
i dont want to get older
i dont want things to change
but they have
and they will continue to
i feel like everything that has happened to me is my fault
im scared
im lonely
im depressed