i hate myself

[sockonmyarm]

i suddenly feel really bad about myself
like why does my body look like it does..
why cant i have a more girlish figure
whyd i get stuck with nothing?
life is so unfair sometimes

these are the reasons i want to be a model
im so insecure
i need something to make me feel good about myself
and if someone put me in front of everyoe as a symbol of beauty...maybe id feel better

im tired of feeling like the ugly one
im always out of place
i dont get compliments on how i look...
no one seems to care anymore
no one pays attention to me

i know that this entry is stupid
no one should feel this way about themselves
but it alwasy seems that something makes me think about this
and then i always get sad
im not the most beautiful girl in the world
i dont have the perfect body
and i never will unless i get plastic surgery
some things dont come naturally