If only you could see that I'm so ordinary....

Jun 25, 2006 15:20

I'm home from IU.

I had a rough time, I learned so much, it was 98 degrees and humid, it was intense and insane. I played 16 games and had 6, 3 hour training sessions. It was incredible, all of the girls there were so good, but so many of them were bitches and really really rich.

I learned a ton and got better, which is why I went. endofstory.

It's amazing that I can leave for a week and not hear from one of my "best friends" the whole time I'm gone, in fact I am pretty sure she had no idea I was even gone. That's just shitty. I feel like this "friend" doesn't even give a shit about me, actually I am pretty sure that is the case. But I guess leaving for a week and coming back, makes you realize what people do care about you.  You know, this "friend" never changes, she says she misses me and we need to hang out and talk and stuff, so we get together and talk once, and then she goes back to the old way. She's not the one I can go to when I'm mad or sad or with my exciting news anymore, she doesn't care. but I guess it's okay, cuz while I was gone, I figured out which ones I could go to, and I love those girls and guys to death. <3<3

I start babysitting this week, and I think I might work at Pamida, yah, sure, laugh. but it's money. and I need money.

I leave again on Friday night, I am spending the night at Amanda's and leaving with her family at 7:30 in the morning to pick her up. <3 Then we are staying at her cottage for the 4th of July, I am so excited.

My brother's open house was yesterday. <3 It went really well, I love my family.

Friday morning, the day after I got back from camp, my mom started yelling at me again, she and KJ and my brother joined in on me and made me ball my eyes out, daddy stuck up for me. <3

So there's this guy, and he's pretty much an idiot. If you're not going to call and we're not going to hang out, don't say that you will or we are. okay, okay. I am sick of this shit, I don't want to care anymore, but I'm me, and that's what I do. fuckit.

(now if only I would listen to my own advice)

Amanda gave me a really good book, and I am going to go read it. <3

People I love today include (aka people who have cared in the past 2 days):
Kendra
Andy
Kim
Casey
Nick
Amanda
Joe
BA
Em Hahn
Ashley Donahue

<3 .thanks loves. <3
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