fuck it.
a lot has happened since the last time I updated....
I can drive, and I'm doing it a lot. when I'm pissed, I drive, when I'm bored, I drive, when I HAVE to get away from my parents, I drive, when I'm crying, I drive. Needless to say, I use a lot of gas, which sucks.
I got screwed over.... not once but.... TWICE!
I am just too nice I guess, but then that can't be the case, because some people tell me I'm so mean. I don't want to be mean, I just want everyone to be happy, and that usually ends in me getting screwed over, but whatever.
I almost quit soccer. Mahan yells at me so much, I'm not a good center halfback, at all. I hate it, actually. I'm not really enjoying it anymore, I play because I love it, not because I have to be good, or because other people want me to play. Soccer was the one thing that took everything else off of my mind for a few hours a day. When I played soccer, I forgot everything else in the world. It's not that way right now. but I love it so much, I am just so frustrated with it all. I am sick of walking off the soccer field crying, and some people just look at me, not realizing what it all really means to me. but oh well.
I am giong to go to the field in a few minutes by myself to shoot, I need to get better at shooting.
Game away tomorrow vs. mcc, home thursday vs. montague, home friday vs. grant. you should come. <3
guys can be such ass holes, and girls can be such bitches.
if there's a sign on my back that says, use me, screw me over, and walk all over me, on my back.... would someone please be so kind as to take it off?
I wonder if I'm too hard on myself? I wonder a lot of things though.
I am going to lose weight, or at least eat healthy. KJ comes home on the 25th, I think that's tomorrow actually. okay, yah. And we are going straight up healthy.
I am going to go now.
ohhh wait. I talked to someone the other day, I didn't say everything I wanted to say, but I heard everything I needed to hear. okay, end of story.
leave some. <3 Samantha Ruth <3