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Hey everybody...
so, today i have fully degraded myself into a blanket-making, livejournal-updating, planning sexual escapades recluse. lol
Kyle and Paul were supposed to come over today...because i finally decided to get the hell over being a chicken shit and tell my parents about them lol...well...the truth anyway...well, sort of the truth...ok! i told them! what else do you want!? lol
anyway...they didnt come...so i had nothing to do today lol...so, ive had this fabric sitting here at the end of my bed for about...3 weeks...and i made a blanket and four pillows...i feel very...crafty right now haha.
ok...heres the real reason that ive actually decided to update this...i AM a total chicken shit...when it comes to guys anyway.
i met this guy at Mandi's pahty on Saturday...(which was uber amounts of fun) and his name is Dave...and he wants to see me again, but i dont know..i havent decided whether i want to or not...is it really fair to go out with someone when you want someone else? thats not fair to the person that you're going out with...because ud be sitting there, thinking of someone else...and that would lead to guilt, then self loathing...and even tually ud hate urself and life would suck for all those involved...
so yeah, i have NO idea what to do.
but im gonna go now...and talk to heather...because shes finally coming to Maine with me! daaa! for a week! in august! woot woot
haha
more later...
<3 ~ steffi
so, today i have fully degraded myself into a blanket-making, livejournal-updating, planning sexual escapades recluse. lol
Kyle and Paul were supposed to come over today...because i finally decided to get the hell over being a chicken shit and tell my parents about them lol...well...the truth anyway...well, sort of the truth...ok! i told them! what else do you want!? lol
anyway...they didnt come...so i had nothing to do today lol...so, ive had this fabric sitting here at the end of my bed for about...3 weeks...and i made a blanket and four pillows...i feel very...crafty right now haha.
ok...heres the real reason that ive actually decided to update this...i AM a total chicken shit...when it comes to guys anyway.
i met this guy at Mandi's pahty on Saturday...(which was uber amounts of fun) and his name is Dave...and he wants to see me again, but i dont know..i havent decided whether i want to or not...is it really fair to go out with someone when you want someone else? thats not fair to the person that you're going out with...because ud be sitting there, thinking of someone else...and that would lead to guilt, then self loathing...and even tually ud hate urself and life would suck for all those involved...
so yeah, i have NO idea what to do.
but im gonna go now...and talk to heather...because shes finally coming to Maine with me! daaa! for a week! in august! woot woot
haha
more later...
<3 ~ steffi