Lots of explaining to do...
Okay, so time to be honest with you. Haha, no I'm not lying about a lot but something important in my life now. So, months ago, I met this boy. His name is Jake. He is 15 years old. Unfortantly he is homeschooled and his parents are like super over protective. But that isn't my point. But I guess we kinda been dating, but I didn't tell anyone cause I didn't think it'd work out. For these following reasons:
1) I didn't think he liked me. (Long story behind that.)
2) I didn't think we'd last cause I barely see him.
3) His dad seriously hates me.
4) His parents are over protective and doesn't let him do anything.
5) HIS DAD HATES ME.
6) I usually push every guy out of my life.
Like seriously, no one knows about him but now I'm more open about it, because I think this is a relationship that might work out. His dad is a pastor and he is a christian. If I stumble, he helps me. So I think that is a good thing. Also, he is like top notch gentleman. I don't know how a 15 year old can be top notch gentleman, but apparently it's possible. Haha. Anywho, I thought I'd explain some of my reasonings so here goes:
1) Haha, so he asked me out and he was like, Hey Jess? And I was like Hey jake? And he's like do you want to be my girlfriend? And I was like Are you serious? (Like shocked way) And he's like ..... Unfortantly. WHAT THE HECK DOES THAT MEAN EMILY? I mean seriously. LOL. Unfortantly? UNFORTANTLY? :| He said he thought I was gunna turn him down. Hahaha.
2) Did I mention his parents are over protective. I mean, he couldn't even go to homecoming cause his parents we're like >:O BAD INFLUENCE. Whatever. I only get to hang out at his house. Lame ay?
3) His dad is doing everything to get me out of Jake's life. Like he is limiting Jake's time to talk to me, to see me, EVERYTHING. It's unfair.
4) Refer to number 2.
5) Refer to number 3.
6) Well, as you know, my past sucks. And I'm scared of it. But I don't know. I TRIED pushing Jake out of my life and for once, someone fought back. And he succeeded. Shockingly. I don't know whether or not it was because I really didn't want him gone or because someone actually gave a crap to fight back. I don't know, but he told me, "I care and just because you don't think you deserve a good guy doesn't mean I'm leaving you." Now that is awesome.
I don't know what was going through my brain to not tell anyone, but yeah. Sunday is our 6 Months. (OH JEEZ) And I'm just like....wow.
But anyways, please don't hate me for not telling you. I mean, I didn't know how to explain it. And I really didn't know how you would take it haha.
:D