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[soccerchick2086]

So much confusion;
too much to work out.
Feeling the walls closing in,
wondering what this loneliness is about.
Time is passing fast
but the healing is not there.
I want to run away from this
but to me that’s just not fair.
I want what I cannot have
and that is what I need.
If only I actually knew what I felt,
the signs I cannot read.
You think it’s easy to deny
and forget about these thoughts.
But I cannot just move on,
as I continue to count my faults.
This hole I’m digging is deep.
I’m losing sight of the light.
If only there was a hope,
anything that felt right.
My eyes fill up with tears
Searching for a clear path.
Adding up the consequences,
I cannot do the math.
I want to read your mind
and know what you are thinking.
I want to watch you when you sleep,
I could do it without blinking.
My feelings are one-sided,
You do not feel the same.
For it would make me happy if you did,
However, there is no one to blame.
I want you to be happy,
I really really do.
No matter what happens,
Just know that I will always love you…