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ok so i just feel so lost, like ive tangled myself up into something that i cant get out of. yes, maybe if i could focus on my work and not ever think about having a social life, maybe i would be fine but life sucks! Ok...exagerating...
I wish things were clear cut. like if you like someone, you know that u like them and want more with them without there being a possibility that they are just a good friend that u enjoy spending time with. Why are things so confusing?? And then there are the spirts where no one seems to interest you but then its like the flood gates open and you think about all these different people and you're trying to figure out who is off-limits or if the person is even bf/gf material. There are so many what-ifs...
Then theres telling someone that u wish there was more and hearing that it was only one sided but in the midst of all of that you secretly have a crush on their good friend. And if it ever got out that u did have this big crush, who knows what would happen. Maybe its just Hood College. Hood College sucks and its web of lesbians and the guys who think their Gods gift to the planet. How do you ever accomplish anything here!??!?! Seriously, as soon as you date one lesbian in what is now a 'love octogon' every single one of the other girls that you might be interested in and hang out with the same crowd become way off limits....because if not World War 3 starts, well I guess Im passed 3 and onto 4. I'm tired of having so many secrets again. I was secret free for like 3 months! Now im back to square one and I feel like there isnt anyone I can really talk to because EVERYONE relates!!!!!!! So i complain on live journal and wait for someone to figure out exactly what im talking about, maybe they can figure out the metaphors and or maybe they know something that i dont and wouldnt mind sharing.
Dont we wish we could read minds....
And all of this is going through my head night and day while I have papers to be writing and exams to be studying for.
My Two Weeks of Hell begins.....
I wish things were clear cut. like if you like someone, you know that u like them and want more with them without there being a possibility that they are just a good friend that u enjoy spending time with. Why are things so confusing?? And then there are the spirts where no one seems to interest you but then its like the flood gates open and you think about all these different people and you're trying to figure out who is off-limits or if the person is even bf/gf material. There are so many what-ifs...
Then theres telling someone that u wish there was more and hearing that it was only one sided but in the midst of all of that you secretly have a crush on their good friend. And if it ever got out that u did have this big crush, who knows what would happen. Maybe its just Hood College. Hood College sucks and its web of lesbians and the guys who think their Gods gift to the planet. How do you ever accomplish anything here!??!?! Seriously, as soon as you date one lesbian in what is now a 'love octogon' every single one of the other girls that you might be interested in and hang out with the same crowd become way off limits....because if not World War 3 starts, well I guess Im passed 3 and onto 4. I'm tired of having so many secrets again. I was secret free for like 3 months! Now im back to square one and I feel like there isnt anyone I can really talk to because EVERYONE relates!!!!!!! So i complain on live journal and wait for someone to figure out exactly what im talking about, maybe they can figure out the metaphors and or maybe they know something that i dont and wouldnt mind sharing.
Dont we wish we could read minds....
And all of this is going through my head night and day while I have papers to be writing and exams to be studying for.
My Two Weeks of Hell begins.....