call me melodramatic.

[soapboxheart]

fuckme.

evey fear and doubt i had about it was real.
but whenever i looked at you it faded away
until i forgot it was even there to being with.
and i remember how i felt all too well.

i want get rid of this feeling
that rainy day has left me with.
instead of erasing the guilt i had
i just got filled with regret.

i dont understand why i would do that.
i was doing so well when i was away.
it was something i didnt even want anymore
and you know its true i didnt want striped you.
i wanted grey tshirt wearing you.
but that person doesnt exist anymore.
and i feel ashamed.