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It's been a looong time since I last updated. I know, I always start the same way because I've gotten lazy and partially lost interest in LJ. But not 100%...I guess, life just happened. It's funny because sometimes I feel like nothing has happened at all but then when I go back to something I haven't done in awhile, it seems like a lot has happened. Anyhoo, I'm saving up for my first car right now. As of right now, I have $1500 saved up. I know, not a whole bunch but it's getting there. I'm trying to save up 3500-4000 to put down on a new car. I'm not telling you what kind of car though ;) Not yet! That'll be my little secret until I post some pictures of it. Yeah, you see the confidence! This was all just a distant dream for me early this year. Honestly, I didn't even think I'd be able to get a car until forever just a few months ago. I do have a full-time job now (not in my field) but it didn't pay a whole lot. But I figured I could make it work though. So that's what I'm gonna do.
In other news, I'm still single. I'm not as torn up about it as I once was. Now, I'm not gonna lie and say that I don't get lonely at times but I'm actually enjoying this single life. Plus, I have a greater confidence in God that He already has my hubby for me so there's no point in being sad that I'm single. We just haven't met yet :) I think a lot of this newfound freedom comes from the fact that I'm becoming a bit more independent now....financially and just in general. It's exciting! I still live at home with my parents but I'm working my way to that place where I'll be able to move on out. Things happen gradually sometimes.
I am trying to figure out if I even want to do graphic design anymore as a career. I just don't get that joy from it anymore. No excitement. It feels like a chore if I have to design. I don't know why but I want to do something else. This is kinda bad timing since I have a degree in Graphic Design but people end up doing different things from their major all the time. It took me awhile to get to understanding and accepting that about my life because at first I felt really upset and guilty for not wanting to do it anymore. My pastor keeps saying (and others) that I'd be a good teacher. I respectfully laughed in his face and said "What?!" I have never, ever, EVER even considered this. I mean, I am pretty good with kids but it just never crossed my mind. I just dismissed this idea but now it's become trapped in my brain and I keep replaying that suggestion. Me...a teacher...a teacher...me? Well, I'm still trying to come to a conclusion about this but we'll see what happens. Oh, I forgot to mention that I'd be a kindergarten teacher (or maybe even 1st grade)...nothing older than 1st grade though. I like little kids. I would have to go to grad school (which I wanted to do anyway) and do the program to get my teacher's certification. I would just go all the way and get my Masters in Childhood Education. This is all in theory though...I'm still trying to figure out what I want to do.
And in other news, I'm still intrigued by natural hair. I know, I tried to go natural once before and got fed up because it seemed so difficult to do anything with it, but the end result is so beautiful. Natural hair on black women is gorgeous. I just am falling in love with how it looks. The thing is, I don't know if I'd want to do the Big Chop...so what transitional styles would I do? I don't really want to wear braids or a weave so what else is there? I can't just rock a crazy-looking, half curly-half straight ponytail for a year...so what? Maybe if I get a good transitional style for a good while, then I'd be brave enough to do the BC. My head is kinda oval-ish so I wonder what the shape would be like under there lol.
Man, I feel like there's so much to say but I can't do it all in one post. Hopefully, I'll post more often in the future to share my thoughts with some online friends I haven't talked to in forever.
In other news, I'm still single. I'm not as torn up about it as I once was. Now, I'm not gonna lie and say that I don't get lonely at times but I'm actually enjoying this single life. Plus, I have a greater confidence in God that He already has my hubby for me so there's no point in being sad that I'm single. We just haven't met yet :) I think a lot of this newfound freedom comes from the fact that I'm becoming a bit more independent now....financially and just in general. It's exciting! I still live at home with my parents but I'm working my way to that place where I'll be able to move on out. Things happen gradually sometimes.
I am trying to figure out if I even want to do graphic design anymore as a career. I just don't get that joy from it anymore. No excitement. It feels like a chore if I have to design. I don't know why but I want to do something else. This is kinda bad timing since I have a degree in Graphic Design but people end up doing different things from their major all the time. It took me awhile to get to understanding and accepting that about my life because at first I felt really upset and guilty for not wanting to do it anymore. My pastor keeps saying (and others) that I'd be a good teacher. I respectfully laughed in his face and said "What?!" I have never, ever, EVER even considered this. I mean, I am pretty good with kids but it just never crossed my mind. I just dismissed this idea but now it's become trapped in my brain and I keep replaying that suggestion. Me...a teacher...a teacher...me? Well, I'm still trying to come to a conclusion about this but we'll see what happens. Oh, I forgot to mention that I'd be a kindergarten teacher (or maybe even 1st grade)...nothing older than 1st grade though. I like little kids. I would have to go to grad school (which I wanted to do anyway) and do the program to get my teacher's certification. I would just go all the way and get my Masters in Childhood Education. This is all in theory though...I'm still trying to figure out what I want to do.
And in other news, I'm still intrigued by natural hair. I know, I tried to go natural once before and got fed up because it seemed so difficult to do anything with it, but the end result is so beautiful. Natural hair on black women is gorgeous. I just am falling in love with how it looks. The thing is, I don't know if I'd want to do the Big Chop...so what transitional styles would I do? I don't really want to wear braids or a weave so what else is there? I can't just rock a crazy-looking, half curly-half straight ponytail for a year...so what? Maybe if I get a good transitional style for a good while, then I'd be brave enough to do the BC. My head is kinda oval-ish so I wonder what the shape would be like under there lol.
Man, I feel like there's so much to say but I can't do it all in one post. Hopefully, I'll post more often in the future to share my thoughts with some online friends I haven't talked to in forever.