its love its love its love;make it hurt
the dance wasnt too bad. Nick and ethan and trandy and sean and dustin and maxx and justin and riley and kim and well to sum it up a LOT of people. It was great. But ethan got kicked out in like 5 min. So me nick taylor left after a bit to find him then we juss stoood outside forever oh ya jasper said he WAS gunna go but he was with bren..right whatever. I went to cassis then justin and rick came then a shitload of pics. then olive garden. Spent the night at cassidys..got home sunday took a nap...not much.Talked to nick for like 45 min. :-D, i hate his dad with a passion
yesterday i had group-we had puppy chow. afterwards we droped mandy and andi off. then i went to justins. Did some shitt. Left..called dane about some shitt. And other ppl to see if they could do shitt but no one could except kim so we met her at the lib. I love juss walkin around and talkin with my brother about just any shitt. i love him to death mofos. At the lib. we were juss sittin then DUN DUN theres maxx! we all hung out..630ish we took justin home and kim to prarie life. came home not much really...talked to nick for 30 min. :-D
Today- played board games in tiger time. mr beals can fuck his son(mike beals haha). This dude, luke cullen,got caught with like weed in his locker,what a fuckin dumbass. haha i laugh at all the "cool" "stoner" "skaterish" dudes at my school,i literalyl lmmfao!came home.didnt go to lessons. went to prarie life for a good and needed workout. caleld justin. came home. not much. gunna go call nick soon i think.
yeah well my bday is next friday,guess im excited. I told nick to try to get ungrounded by then but he said thats prolly pushin it and hes right so he said well celebrate our bdays togehter(his=march 29). This shitty ass motherfuckin month is really close to being over also,thank god. pssh o yeah i think i fuckin FAILED hardcore on a science quiz lmao. fuck that shit idc
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Yeah life still sucks though. idk. im in a really really sticky(?) situation.it sucks so bad and its (pretty sure it is) tearing me up inside. Ive kinda been in a situation like this before and ,i told myself if i happend to be in this situation again,what to do. And im pretty sure imma do it,but...i no its gunna hurt me and other people nad ill cry and be sad and pissed but i no if i didnt do it,id regret it later in life. It just makes me so confused and sad and mad just thinking about it. but its always there lurking .
*sigh* goddamit god damn god damn. happiness sucks.
((pssh o yea and in 3 weeks ive only cut 2 times.but bitch please,trust me,ive wanted to soo bad soo many times))