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I've heard it saidThat people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led to those who help us most to grow
If we let them and we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today because I knew you
Sometimes I forget how good it is to write things down. I used to write all the time... I love being able to go back to a date and see what I was doing, what was important to me at the time. I love seeing how much things have changed, how much I've changed, and grown.
I really want to see Wicked. I really love Glee... well, pretty much any musical really. I am really starting to love my weekly routines. Date nights, football Sundays, etc. I just need to be better about fitting others into them.
I want to cut my hair off. I am SO TIRED of having long hair... no more weddings for a while, it'll have time to grow back.
Sometimes I lose my way, and I need help finding it again. Sometimes I just need to be reminded that it's okay to be lost sometimes. Sometimes I just need a little reassurance. Sometimes I really need a hug.
AND sometimes, all I need is a bottle of wine and some good conversation. and maybe a cigarette or 5.
It's almost 2012, before I know it I'll be 27. Oh glob, 27. 27 used to sound so old... and sometimes it still does. I used to have this plan, outline, for where I wanted to be at 27... now I'm not so sure. All I want to do is travel, take trips. Visit faraway friends and create memories.
I wish we could barter things... instead of exchanging money. "How about instead of $300 for that plane ticket, I give you this really nice bookshelf? Eh?" There are so many places I want to go, and only so many vacation days, and dollar-dollar bills to spend.
Losing your job sucks. I don't recommend it. As much as I hated all of the bullshit, I truly loved what it was that I was doing. As much as I felt like I didn't matter, or that we weren't cared about "Just do the best you can, etc" I really felt like I mattered to my staff. I enjoy helping people learn things, I enjoy watching people improve. I love working with somebody and then *click* they get it. It's an extremely gratifying feeling, and that's one of the things I miss. It's always the people. At the end of the day, a job is a job, but it's the people that surround you that make it special...or horrible.
I'm going to try and make a habit of this.