butterflies
I know you can't force this, but i need a girl to give my butterflies in my stomach. blah blah blah it just happens. But i haven't come across a girl recently that gives me butterflies in my stomach. But have you notices when you get hurt by someone that those butterflies become something you just want to vomit out? The once great feeling of butterflies now becomes something that turns your stomach in a bad way, or maybe its still the same feeling you once had that felt great but you tag it with a bad mood because you don't want that feeling with that person anymore. I look around in school, (i'm in the cafe) and i don't see another jenn, i don't see another jess or i don't see another valerie. But then i ask myself, do i really want that feeling again and go through that whole thing again, i think once is enough with them but the feeling in the begining, that universal feeling of butterflies, waking up in the morning to see what more drama i can get into, the phone ringing and my eyes light up, that whole time in the begining when all you can do is talk about this person , and every other word in your converstations is this person...... thats what i want. ;-) -adam