i never want to drive like that again

[so2smooth]

i didn't know if i couldn't see the road because of the rain or my tears running down my face.. every second trying to wipe my eyes... every second saying i can't drive like this.. every time i felt a bump i didn't know if it was my heart or if i hit something.. i couldn't stop shaking.. i couldn't hold on to the wheel... i would grip it soo hard and i didn't have any strength.. holding on to my fone to feel if she would save me with a call.. beside me was the rose... crawling up.. making myself small in the seat.. i shouldn't have drove like that.. in the end i made it.. it one piece with my heart in a million pieces... old wounds opened... tears that have been held back for a while.. never thought i'd let myself feel this way again
.. i'm still shaking i can barely type.. barely see the screen..