Aug 15, 2004 01:10
everywhere i go.. i see cute people with ugly people.. and i can't help but to ask myself "what does she see in that guy.. " "inner beauty?" well i got a whole lot of that.. i see these happy couples and i used to think "what do i have to do to get a girl like that" and that evolved into "what do i have to do to get a girl" now i'm exhausted from thinking.. fatgued from trying to convince myself that i'm worthy of another being.. tired of looking but not really looking so it doesn't appear that i'm desperate.. where you are being afraid to tell someone that i'm are interested in fears that they would avoid me.. consumed from being alone.. no longer will i be at the mercy of women to like me no longer will i try to look my best for women that don't know i'm in love with them..noooo all that is finished.. fineto.. completeo.. no more-o
for now on i'm dating myself....
now i already talk to myself so i know my converstation will be good.. i always said i wanted to be with someone just like me.. well there is no one more like me.. than.. than me.. its not like i'm dating my cousin or nothin.. i looked it up.. there is nothin in the law books that says a man can't date himself. i don't know why i didn't think of this before
I amaze myself sometimes..:-) i laugh and joke with myself on lonely days... playin hard for better days.. and now we can get through the rough times together... no one to impress but myself.. i mean i prolly still play games with myself... cry to myself.. lie to myself cause i hate to hurt myself's feelings.. i'll only be looking out for myself though
but you know how women are.. once they see with you with someone.. all of a sudden now they want to get with you.. all a sudden i'm that "cute guy that is dating someone.." now i assure you that i'm not doing this to make other women jealious.. i'm completely happy with myself.. i like myself.. i think i'm attractive. Planning to be with myself till the very end.. ok well... till someone better comes along.. -poetri (def poet)