The state of November
I'm not writing no novels. I ain't growin no mustache.
But I have been a little grumpy lately.
I've been out of sorts and I don't know why. Nothing is really going particularly badly, but I keep being cranky.
Don't get me wrong there are things I could be grumpy about:
I have horrid student loan payments I'm finally trying to tackle. Seriously, skills cost moneys. Even if you're not using them. I'm still hanging out in unfinished-degree-limbo. All this debt and I still have two or three more years of school to go before I can honestly claim degree status. The worst is the debtload, but I know I'm not alone in that bit of misery.
Besides the debtiness and related unfinished schooliness, things aren't really all that bad. Not necessarily ideal, but certainly not bad. I have a decent enough job. Of course it doesn't pay as well as I wish, but I have terrific coworkers, work for great people in a great company and it's even pseudo-related to what I went to school for. I've started weekly photo-sessions to hone and refine my studio lighting skills, for which models are approaching me! My job allows me access to equipment that I could almost never afford to learn, and affords me the luxury of meeting people I would be very unlikely to meet otherwise. My girlfriend is fantastic. My new room mate is one of the best I've ever lived with. I have a nice apartment. Hell, even my landlords are great people. In a nutshell, things may not be perfect, but they're pretty okay.
So what's with the lingering negativity that rolls around in the back of my brain and occasionally off my tongue? I don't have much to complain about, hardly anything. So why can't I slip into an easier going mood? In spite of a lack for any reason to be stressed, I'm stressed--and I shouldn't be.
Maybe I just need some smile therapy or something? I'll cheer myself up myself if I have to!
With that I've decided that I'm going to post a happy video every day for a month. I watch a lot of video online, so why not share some of the ones I enjoy.
To begin, a cover of one of my favorite songs by one of my favorite bands of growing up in the 90's. Maybe you'll recognise it?
What do you do to cheer yourself up when you're in a mysterious rut?
[edit: facebook does not imort video embeds from my livejournal so here is Polyphonic Spree singing Lithium by Nirvana. Enjoy.]
But I have been a little grumpy lately.
I've been out of sorts and I don't know why. Nothing is really going particularly badly, but I keep being cranky.
Don't get me wrong there are things I could be grumpy about:
I have horrid student loan payments I'm finally trying to tackle. Seriously, skills cost moneys. Even if you're not using them. I'm still hanging out in unfinished-degree-limbo. All this debt and I still have two or three more years of school to go before I can honestly claim degree status. The worst is the debtload, but I know I'm not alone in that bit of misery.
Besides the debtiness and related unfinished schooliness, things aren't really all that bad. Not necessarily ideal, but certainly not bad. I have a decent enough job. Of course it doesn't pay as well as I wish, but I have terrific coworkers, work for great people in a great company and it's even pseudo-related to what I went to school for. I've started weekly photo-sessions to hone and refine my studio lighting skills, for which models are approaching me! My job allows me access to equipment that I could almost never afford to learn, and affords me the luxury of meeting people I would be very unlikely to meet otherwise. My girlfriend is fantastic. My new room mate is one of the best I've ever lived with. I have a nice apartment. Hell, even my landlords are great people. In a nutshell, things may not be perfect, but they're pretty okay.
So what's with the lingering negativity that rolls around in the back of my brain and occasionally off my tongue? I don't have much to complain about, hardly anything. So why can't I slip into an easier going mood? In spite of a lack for any reason to be stressed, I'm stressed--and I shouldn't be.
Maybe I just need some smile therapy or something? I'll cheer myself up myself if I have to!
With that I've decided that I'm going to post a happy video every day for a month. I watch a lot of video online, so why not share some of the ones I enjoy.
To begin, a cover of one of my favorite songs by one of my favorite bands of growing up in the 90's. Maybe you'll recognise it?
Click to viewWhat do you do to cheer yourself up when you're in a mysterious rut?
[edit: facebook does not imort video embeds from my livejournal so here is Polyphonic Spree singing Lithium by Nirvana. Enjoy.]