stressed for less...
I feel so much more like myself when I am not full of stress and my nerves are not constantly on end. Seriously this past week I kinda checked out from being already mildly social and I am so glad that I did. Although this weekend is filled with social events that I am gladly part of some, I feel so much better about what I am doing with my life when it flows and I don't have to MAKE everything work out the way I want it to. Sometimes it just gets kinda frustrating when you were so used to everything flowing in a certain manner and the whole dynamic of that changes quicker than you can keep up with. Then not only does it change but it errupts with many changes and you need to keep adujusting faster than you can blink.
I used to be so scared of taking time out of the busyNESS for myself because I was afraid I would just sink into a deep depression and get lost in my thoughts. I am glad that I have been able to grant myself the oppertunity to do so and know in my heart that just cause I am stepping back to re-evaluate certain situations doesn't mean I am going to be depressed and check out completely. It is nice to expirence that instead of just wanting to believe that.
So I am off to go treat myself to some new music cause I am totally on this Etta Jones kick and need some of her deep soul music to fill my ears with. I hope all ya kids are well and Miss. Kira I expect to hear from you soon so we can make our study date. Someone around to help me focus is always needed and I know that you understand this dynamic of the way I work.
much love,
sarah jeanie poo rugh
I used to be so scared of taking time out of the busyNESS for myself because I was afraid I would just sink into a deep depression and get lost in my thoughts. I am glad that I have been able to grant myself the oppertunity to do so and know in my heart that just cause I am stepping back to re-evaluate certain situations doesn't mean I am going to be depressed and check out completely. It is nice to expirence that instead of just wanting to believe that.
So I am off to go treat myself to some new music cause I am totally on this Etta Jones kick and need some of her deep soul music to fill my ears with. I hope all ya kids are well and Miss. Kira I expect to hear from you soon so we can make our study date. Someone around to help me focus is always needed and I know that you understand this dynamic of the way I work.
much love,
sarah jeanie poo rugh