Jan 04, 2005 18:26
Been thinking alot
Been sleeping alot
Been sick alot
Figured some stuff out
Caught up on my sleep
Finally got better
Seems as if everything has come full circle. I finally figured out what I think is some of gods plan for me. Came to the conclusion that he gives me "true love" everything something really really bad is about to happen or is happening, and takes it away as soon as the boat stops rocking. Decited that being depressed doesnt punish anyone but me and Im just not gonna do it anymore. Im gonna be happy damnit! Im gonna go out and mingle and sing and laugh and cry and just be my fucking self. What am I sitting around mourning for?? My life isnt over! The sun is still shining, the birds are still singing, life is good. And I will no longer let myself suffer simply because some chick doesnt love me anymore! (mari dont take that the wrong way, im glad we can still be friends and all that jazz, I just cant let mourning over you take all the joy and fun out of my life)So yeah...thats been my last few days and nights.
xoxoxo, Liz