back to december
i wished i didn't have to hurt you with the truth.
you don't know me enough to understand why i feel the way i feel
and i don't want to be in that spot again, unveiling my heart and memories only to be judged and scrutinized like a sinner.
you and i
we're no longer the same person.
so i just
needed to leave. and live.
i'd go back in time and change it,
but i can't
so if the chain is on your door,
i understand
i missed this year's fireworks by a few minutes.
just a short glimpse and the light is gone.
we were standing by the beach together but i have never felt such distance from someone so near.
the days that pass by made me realized even more of how different we are now.
it's too obvious.
too difficult.
too much.
i have nothing else to say to you.
i have said and done enough.
and so have you.
don't tell me to live only for myself
because it's not enough to just live. only. for. yourself.