Sep 11, 2004 14:47
im so pissed off that i cant go to the RIP show in pikipsy, however you spell it, and ofcourse cuz Soul Fly is playing!! but i wish the mest luck to Frank, Kyle, Tim and Anthony cuz i no they will do an awsome job, you guyz fuckin rock. Last night i just hung out with marin, rendy, enok, yuki, kurk, sarai (sorry i dont no how to spell ur name) which was really nice to get to no her a bit, chris, dave, loui (drunkfuck, hilaire and yea, i think thats it, i think i broke my rib or maybe my lung are just black cuz when marin triped me, i think my heart stoped for about 2 seconds.
Tonight im goin to the block party at RJ's with solar tides, i hope its fun.
Anywyas, school started and i guess its ok, i got good teachers, good class's, im gonna b on wildside so its gonna fun to be in that n start with shows n stuff.
I wish i could go come with him tonight. IM so comfused, hald of me loves him, very much, n wants to be with him forever, but then the other half of me is empty, the lonlyness, missin him all the time, wondering which girl he could b fucking or all the drugs he could be on, were he is, in jail or not, or if hes dead or alive, its stressing and depressing, we made a deal, i stop if he stops, but how am i suppost to no what hes doin, or how long do i have to wait for him to call before i realize that i have to move on. buti cant, no matter how much i try. unless i get swept of my feet. ofcourse im interested in other people, im lookin tryin to get my mind off of him, maybe ill get over it, no i wont, i cant, he needs me, i think, i need him, i no i do.