Sunburn, woo!

[snookypy]

Oh yeah, it's summer! Here is my second sunburn of the season... It never ceases to amaze me just how fast I burn. My little one is in swimming lessons. I signed up for the early classes thinking that the sun would be a little bit easier on my skin this early in the morning. My logic was sound, but it seems I was wrong. Sooo, as I'm sitting here baking in the early morning sun, I thought I'd blog a little to distract myself from my ever-pinkening flesh. (insert cliche "that's what she said" comment here) Well, this week is turning out to be pretty much shit, despite my best efforts to keep my chin up. My mostly neglectful boyfriend is in absentee mode again, and full of "I'm so busy" excuses. I don't know why I bother wasting any of my energy on him anymorre. I love him, but this relationship is beginning to take a toll on my sanity. I keep trying to give him the benefit of the doubt and have faith in the pretty little lies that he tells me, but my patience is wearing thin with his head games. Sometimes I want to remind him that neglect is a form of abuse, but every time I stand up for myself, he masterfully turns it arounnd to be somehow my fault. I am at the point now that I refuse to take responsibility for his actions anymore. I've been good to him... Far better than his last giirlfriend was, this is for sure... Hell, at this point, I have people telling me that I've been better to him than he even deserves. I see a great deal of validity in this point of view lately. It seems that lately I have more of a relationship withh my exes than I do him. I would never cheat on him... Somehow, still, he is the only one that I want. However, financially, Mike has been the one to offer me the emergency support... I was fine with this before Rey laid the guilt trip inmy lap about it. What I am not fine with, though, s the fact that Bill is the one offering me the emotional support that I so desperately need from Rey. I know that when he eventually decides that I'm worth his time again, I will accept him with open arms.

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