Update.
Usually whenever I update this thing it means I have something on my mind. So here we go. Summer is over (unfortunately), and I'm back to school. I love all my classes and my teachers & the best part is that now I get to spend more time with Lianet, Julie, Jess, Toe, and Jennie. =) The first day was alright. The second day(today) ehhh not so much. I am finally beginning to realize that the only way to move on with the future is to let go of the past..... COMPLETELY. If you hang on to bits and pieces of your past, or spend your time dwelling on moments that didn't last, you're bound to find yourself back at the start. Instead of finally having moved on, you're back at the starting point of the moving on process. I can't even begin to count how many times this has happened to me. Especially during the past few months. I'm finally ok, finally happy, and then bam it happens, I mess it all up. & as much as I may want to point fingers and play the blame game, I know that my progress (or lack there of) lies completely in my hands, and if I am not seeing results its entirely my fault. I can't change the past, and I need to just deal with it. Put it behind me, and take one giant leap forward. People change- - they grow up, grow apart, and outgrow their past. Thats life, and you either swallow it with a spoonful of sugar, or you let it turn you into a bitter and resentful person. Thats def. not my plan. I have some pretty amazing people in my life, and all of these tough times have really proved to me who is worth my time and who isn't. I have not always made the right choice, I have not always befriended the right people. But I have a future ahead of me and enough lessons learned so that I'll never make the same mistakes twice. I couldn't be happier. =)
Michelle Branch- Goodbye to you.
Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
tears form behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I said
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Oohhh
And It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
And when the stars fall and I will lie awake
Your my shooting star