things keep coming
Ok, so talking to Brian on the phone over the past few weeks has been great. being with him that weekend i really think brought us closer in a whole lot of ways! We have talked about telling each other how we feel but its so very hard. So, Tiffany said we should write letters, poems, or just write our feelings down on paper...so I did. I wrote him a letter and sent it, it was all about how much I love talking to him and being with him and how I think he is the most amazing person int he world. About three days later he called me at night and was like "I went on a long drive to think about things. I prayed about what to do with us and asked the Lord to show me a sign if we were going to become more then just friends." then he took a long pause. Then he told me that when he got home him mum gave him the mail with my letter in it! I mean my gosh! talk about a sign lol! So he told me that it gave him and tear of joy to read it. Then he went on about how wonderful I am! I cant really say how special Brian is to me, I mean he is to friggen wonderful. He likes me for me and not for some other reason, and we think so much alike. We have the same views on family, life, and love. Its great! So, he said he had a suprise for me and I cant friggen wait! Im so happy about whatever it is. He sliped and told me about part of the suprise...I poem/letter! AWWW! lol. So, this last weekend Johnny came down becaue he could not make it this weekend which sucks because this weekend our Friend Brittany is coming to spend the weekend with us. But its all fine anyways. We went to the mall and had a bunch of fun. Then we found some funky stuff in my sisters room on sunday night, but it was just all joke stuff. So, now Its the week and all I do is sit around on my bum and watch TV and Hannah! I mean I like having nothing to do but Im sleeping and being lazy to much and I feel like crap. So starting this weekend me and Tiff and Brittany will jog in the morning and stop sleeping in and staying up so late.
Wow, no matter how hard I try I cant seem to get Brian out of my head! All I can think about is him, he is the last thing I think about before I fall asleep and the first thing I think of in the morning! I just feel so happy when I think about him. The day seems so long becasue im always waiting for him to call and it drives me nuts!!! I know he will call but I wanna talk to him so bad everyday that I cant wait till he gets off work. Well, I just need to breath and try and focus on other things...not going to happen lol!
So, the last big thing this week is my diet! I know, WHAT? Its the atkins diet and my gosh its so hard. No bread, no sweets, so soda, nothing but special hotdogs, chicken and cream cheese rolls, veggies, and fruit. I dont think I will make it because it making me very weak and dizzy all the time and for some reason I just dont feel like eating which is really bad! I think after this week I will stop and maybe try and lower leavel diet lol. I dont wanna shrivil up into a super modle lol!
Wow, no matter how hard I try I cant seem to get Brian out of my head! All I can think about is him, he is the last thing I think about before I fall asleep and the first thing I think of in the morning! I just feel so happy when I think about him. The day seems so long becasue im always waiting for him to call and it drives me nuts!!! I know he will call but I wanna talk to him so bad everyday that I cant wait till he gets off work. Well, I just need to breath and try and focus on other things...not going to happen lol!
So, the last big thing this week is my diet! I know, WHAT? Its the atkins diet and my gosh its so hard. No bread, no sweets, so soda, nothing but special hotdogs, chicken and cream cheese rolls, veggies, and fruit. I dont think I will make it because it making me very weak and dizzy all the time and for some reason I just dont feel like eating which is really bad! I think after this week I will stop and maybe try and lower leavel diet lol. I dont wanna shrivil up into a super modle lol!