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wow, I have not updated in a long time! Well, not a whole lot has gone one, I got super sick two weeks ago, I mean I was on the brink of death lol! SO I miss three days of school and when you go to Ladue you can miss one day without being totaly crazy behind. The only class that I had to make up work is ac lab, which is just like a homeroom that last for 90 mins and you can go see your teracher or hang out with friends, but I could not do anything because me had MAP math testing so all ac lab was taken up by that crap. So, now im even more behind, grrr! But not all is bad, I feel clolser to Brian now and I love our friendship more than anything! He is so funny, I feel a great but a little odd emotion whenever I think about him or talk to him. He makes me feel good about myslef just by saying "hi"!!! I mean he can turn my bad day upside down and make it a great one and all he has to do is call or leave me a message online...I dont think he has any clue how he does that or that he even does. Im scared to let my feelings show because I love our friendship and thats all I want right now, I dont want anything but that FOR NOW! Things may change and I have to just trust the lord with it. But, I get the feeling he feels the same, its just a little butterfly in my tummy that tells me one day we will grow closer! It feels odd to like someone but not want them in the way I most often do! I mean, I dont want him...umm, just for fun, I dont even what him, I already have him in my friendship and that great. I like him, I love him as a friend and the like is more then friendship but Im happy jus the way things are!
Ok so off the Brian subject and on the home subject! MY HEAVENS, my did and sis are driving me to the brink of insanity! My dad has changed so much over the past two months, he is no longer the same dad! My sister is a little brat who always gets her way! When I think about what my life was like in NC and then I thinkn about how it is here in STL I cry for NC so much, I yearn for it like I yearn for love! well, class is almost over, lol!
PS in church we learned "one thing"...think about that and tell me what you think it means!!!
Ok so off the Brian subject and on the home subject! MY HEAVENS, my did and sis are driving me to the brink of insanity! My dad has changed so much over the past two months, he is no longer the same dad! My sister is a little brat who always gets her way! When I think about what my life was like in NC and then I thinkn about how it is here in STL I cry for NC so much, I yearn for it like I yearn for love! well, class is almost over, lol!
PS in church we learned "one thing"...think about that and tell me what you think it means!!!