were hearts made whole just to break?
i need scotland.. i need a break from this, from life, from everything....
it gets so overwhelming to try and keep your head above the water.. to keep from drowning.. but you cant.. everyone is constantly waiting, expecting, demanding your all, your best, your self...
and it gets hard....
this weekend things were put into perspective for me.. i went and served at my church on saturday and talked to this amazing man who is from longmont, has a 22 year old son, works whatever construction jobs he can, and does chores at the homeless shelter so he gets a bed every night.. he doesnt drink and hes trying to get back on his feet... he was this amazing person who by the worlds standards is trash... trash.. can you imagine that?? a man with more integrity than any of us who are constantly handed things.. and he was there on saturday for bible study and lunch... it just really made me think a lot about myself... i mean i wanted to go shopping on saturday and blow off that service project but i reluctantly went and ended up experiencing something like that.. its unreal.....
in other news my back hurts from giving 8 million piggy back rides and holding 2 babies at a time .... oh what a day.. i love my babies though.. i dont care how old they get they will always be my babies..
"I cried out with no reply
And I cant feel you
By my side
So I'll hold tight
To what I know
You're here and Im never alone..."
it gets so overwhelming to try and keep your head above the water.. to keep from drowning.. but you cant.. everyone is constantly waiting, expecting, demanding your all, your best, your self...
and it gets hard....
this weekend things were put into perspective for me.. i went and served at my church on saturday and talked to this amazing man who is from longmont, has a 22 year old son, works whatever construction jobs he can, and does chores at the homeless shelter so he gets a bed every night.. he doesnt drink and hes trying to get back on his feet... he was this amazing person who by the worlds standards is trash... trash.. can you imagine that?? a man with more integrity than any of us who are constantly handed things.. and he was there on saturday for bible study and lunch... it just really made me think a lot about myself... i mean i wanted to go shopping on saturday and blow off that service project but i reluctantly went and ended up experiencing something like that.. its unreal.....
in other news my back hurts from giving 8 million piggy back rides and holding 2 babies at a time .... oh what a day.. i love my babies though.. i dont care how old they get they will always be my babies..
"I cried out with no reply
And I cant feel you
By my side
So I'll hold tight
To what I know
You're here and Im never alone..."